Walk Back Into The Past To See The Future! I'm Lost In The Time Travel!!

The life is like that...

Time just pass by....

Without any warning...

It just don't give us second chance!!

Although we all are regret....

But we can't turn back!!

So, we just can contiune to get wrong!

Sometimes, we don't have choice!

We just can be wrong!

No more second chance!!

I walk back into the past,

To see my future!

But,

I'm lost in the time travel!

Where am i??

I just lost!!

Anyone can help me??

Suddenly, I am just alone!

In an unknow place!

What should i do??

I hear crying!

I see scar!

I feel the bleeding!

It just just full of sadness!!

I'm inside my past!!

My past just like that??

My friends hate me!

i know!

They talk behind me!

I don't mind!

They stab me from the back!

I don't care!

They always try to get rid of me!

I already no more feeling!!

Rain!!

It is raining!!

No!!

It just my tears!!

Can't stop it!

It won't stop!

My heart is crying, bleeding and full of scar!

My past is full of sadness and sorrow!

I am terrible, horrible and vegetable!

Sometimes, i am wondering what am i here?

In this cruel world!

What can i do??

KILL MYSELF??

No!

I am stupid and crazy!!

but i will no do that!

Cos it is silly!

My past is just like that!

How about my future??

Can you see the future?

I can't!

There are no future for me!

Can i try to get what i want?

Sure, but it will be hard!

Sometimes, i feel like i want to runaway!

Just runway!

Wthout thinking anyone, anything again!

Go to a place!

A place that no one know me!

To start my life again!

Just get the memory out of my head!

And get in the new memory!

But,

It just a dream!

A dream that can't be true forever!

But i still hoping!

Haha....

Kinda stupid!!!

I am a stupid person!

But i just like to be stupid!

Because i no need to think many things!

I just want to be happy!

If you want to know your future,

Your just need to walk back into your past!

To see what you done in the past!

Than, your future will just appear like that!

Good Luck to you!

END!!!

BY: RYANCROSS23

Sri Aman Hari Keusahawanan

Today is saturday! School got activity again! Haiz!! Really don't like to go activity! But what to do? If i didn't go, sure get scold!! I arrive at school around 7.20am! Than we started to get the gadget done! We use the whole activity time to do it! haha.... If is kind of good, no need marching!! I really like it!!

Than we have the campfire meeting! It is damn boring and wasting time! I don't know what i am doing there!! Sometime i think they are too stress and give alot of pressure to themself! Actually this kind of things can't be rush!



After the meeting, Me, Cheryl, Joon Sean, Gim Aun, Weng Hong, Hing Lun go to Sri Aman with Theng Hon by his car! Haha... We no need to take LRT and walk lo!! So good! I think we are lucky!!

When we get there already 1.47pm liao!! but there still alot of people!! When i get there, i try to find my friends Poi Man and Yee May! But they find me first! Cos i really can't see them!! Before that, Cheryl say she saw Sai Khong and Wayne! But i am in rush to meet my friends! Too bad i miss the chance to talk to them!! i really want to meet them in personally!!! But too bad i miss it!! Nevermind la, still got chance!!!!

We walk around and find something to play and eat!! It is really fun! I had become the target of the game of throw the tennis ball to hit target make the people to fall down into the water! I become the one who fall inside the water! It was so fun! But too bad my friends just hit it two time only! Six ball but two only hit the target to make me fall down into the water! Too bad and sad, i thought i can get into water six time~!!! Too bad do not bring camera, or not cqan take down the picture at the moment i drop inside the water!!!! ~~~
Than, i got play the 'catching' fish with hand! haha~~ That one is really fun!! Me, Poi Man, Yee May and A girl That i not yet know her name play together!! Four hand get into to basin and catch the small fish!! Haha... it is really fun, they keep on sceaming!!! After that, they want to give us the fish but we don't want!!! Than wa just walk around lo!!!!!

I with my friends(Poi Man and Yee May) most of the time, than i with them again before go back!!! Christine had her leg cramp or don't know what happen! Too bad lo!! I hope she is okay now~~

My school also having HARI K at 7.7.07. Hope anyone want to come, just come lo!!!!

p.s: Thank you Cheryl for fetching me and joon sean! Help me to thanks your mum!!!

A Friend is...

A FRIEND IS...
(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells U the truth when U need 2 hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)- plain things you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and....
(Z)aps you back to reality...TAKE CARE !!!

Sick again

Today i sick again~ Haiz! I just can't wake up from the bed and i sleep until 2 pm! Today i do not go to school but if i go to school also i will sleep inside the class! Now i feel so cold and freezing! Head hot like can fry a egg on it!
Don't know anyone in school curious about how am i??
I'm sure they all will say i am lasy, ponteng or something stupid! They will not think about the reason is i am sick!! Hahaha.... For sure lo!! People like them... Haiz....
Okie lo, don't want to write lo! Need to rest now!
so, can wish me get well soon ya????
thx lo!!

END~

THe camp

I just come back from Ulu Langat Perfect Camp! Now is very tired and smell like mud! Haiz, i don't know how to describe this camp! This camp have two part! One is Fun and one is Suck! This is the feeling i having now! But i going to write about the fun part first! haha...

This camp is combine morning and afternoom section perfect! Too bad Cheryl is not going! Haiz, very very sad lo! If she go, i think this camp will become much more fun! Cheryl, why you don't want to go! I am so sad lo! Weng Hong, don't not misunderstand ya! I not like Cheryl ya! She is only my friend o !! So, don't hit me at the school ya!!

I got many friends going to this camp! Like Wai Seong, Yee Ling, Nicole, Jia Bao, Sou Teng, Choo Er and many more!! This is a good because got many girls to talk lo!! But all of them already got lover so i just can be their friend lo!! haha...

This camp activity is quite fun but one of the activity is suck! That one is to test our loyalty to our friends! They say they want to send our three people home for taking the 'drug'. WTF, it just a game right? But they look like so serious! And they really is a good actor! They make us to believe they are really will send them home! Yee Ling is one of the three person! We all try so hard to make them stay like argue with the trainer, stop the car, block the road so the car can't pass! Haha... Some of us even cry including me lo! But i do not cry, just my tears keep coming out from my eyes! I know this is just a test but they are too over! That time i thought Wai Seong will really fight with them! This is really show how strong are our friendship!

Other activity like going to jungle tracking, walk inside the water at 'river'??, holding a long string to make a knot together, Take the punishment together, debat!! Too bad do not have night walk in jungle because of raining! I really like this all activity!!

In this camp, many people had cry! I saw Sou teng and meagan cry! Choo Er also cry! Haiz, i feel really sad when they are crying! It is so touching!!!

Let me ask you something! When is a girl look most pretty and beautiful or elegant?
The answer is when they just come out from the shower! The long and wet hair make them look damn pretty! I like when a girl do not tie up their hair! It look damn pretty! Nicole, Jia Bao, Sou Teng, Michelle, Yee Ling, Choo Er, Meagan and all of them look so pretty especially Nicole and
Michelle! They really look so different! They look like an angel! Damn pretty lo!! Now i only know why Gim Aun like Nicole so much! She is really a nice girl!! Jia Bao also not bad! She also got someone like her! The someone is not me o! For sure! I already got someone i like and i will wait her lo!! xD

Everyone is having alot of different emotional! Me is can see leng lui and so angry for them to play us like that!! Haiz!! hope we can grow after this camp! I really love my friends and care about them so much!! Hope them will happy always! Haha... xD

Sorry for everything!
Sorry for the mistake i make!
Sorry for the word i say!
Sorry for the things i do!
Sorry for the word i write!
Sorry for nothing!
Just sorry!

END~!

Camping Again!!

Today is friday! Sometime hate friday so much! Friday is the most boring day! I don't like to go home so early!~

Tommoro going to camping again! So, i don't want to write so many things!
than see your guys monday lo!!

p/s : Gim Aun lo, i am not talking about you in my last post, Sorry for everything lo! xD

Sometime i think i .......

Pat Lin four day do not come to school liao! Miss him lo! ?So, i suggest we all go visit him at the hospital because today we all just free and nothing to do after school. But they all just give me alot of rubbish excuse! I am really angry and sad! Stupid man! Why they all just can't take out some time for their friend? People is just like that. I can't blame anyone! But i think if other people suggest, they all sure go!

Haiz, I think i am the problem here! I always feel i am an outsider among my friends! Don't know why, they just give me this kind of feeling! No one ever know or care about what i think, what i say or what i want to do! What to do? I think it because i am very arrogant and stupid!
I also terrible, horrible and vegetable!

Sometime i feel like my friends is better without me! I mean they are better without having me as their friend! Really, they give me this kind of feeling! I think they are much more enjoyor happy without i with them! I really don't mind lo! Just sometime will feel sad only!

You know? Everyday i go back to home, i feel so empty, inside my house just me and the TV! My only friend is the TV only! I really scare lonely, but after all this year, I think 6 year i been like that, i though i already immune to lonely, but i am wrong! I still hate to be alone! But in the school, i still the same, all by myself! Just never got anyone simply just sit down and talk to me! The only person ever do that is just Pat Lin! He never just talk with me in half way and go to talk to other person! Other people alwaysdo that! U see Gim Aun, he never be alone in school, cos everyone like him! He is smart, nice, kind, handsome! People always talk to him!

Because of afraid lonely, i like to go my friends house! People always ask me why i like to go to my friends house! I think i just don't want to be alone! Since primary school until now, i still like to visit my friends house! just like to do that!

okie lo, Saturday i got other camping lo! So xianz!!! Camping again!
I hope no need to go o!! Haiz!
END!!

Maybe... sorry??

Today i am really tired! I even sleep at the class!! haiz, what a "good" student!! It is because yesterday i sleep around 2 midnight and i wake up around 5.30 morning! Just sleep around 3 hour only! But i just sleep when no teacher go in to class. Haha...

Today is quite okay lo! Just i felt today very boring! I get all my result already! All just pass and i fail one subject! Very sad! Pass is not my goal! I want to get A1. That is my final goal! But it seem to be so far away, cos i stupid ma! Is very stupid! haha.. What to do? just stupid had become a part of me, a part of my life!

Maybe i should say sorry? why? i also don't know! But i think own Gim Aun a sorry!
Sorry, a word that i say it more than thank you!
Because i am a straight forward person. I say think without pass through my brain! I just say what i want to say only! Than, i will fell so sorry for saying that!
Very stupid and silly right?
but, anyway, sorry lo! Gim Aun!

Miss Pat Lin ya! Hope he will get well soon! and come back to school!!
He like my twins. Just cannot survive without him!!!
Hope we will get into top 10 together lo! xD
Top 10 is no easy to get into lo! I hope we can make it lo!! xP

Haiz!

Today i get back my physics paper and i find out i fail my first subject in this mid-year exam!! Haiz, what to do?? i too stupid lo!!! My chinese can't get A1, haiz, so sad!! Today is double hurt! Just no a good day for me!! Now i don't know what to do with my terrible result!! It just too far away from the goal i set for this exam! i maybe too stupid to be good lo!!! xP. I facing a lot of problem lately!! If can, i want to runaway from all of that!! haha....... what a dreamer!!
Now i am just going to focus on my study only!! no more playing fool!! So, if i act like silly, i'm sorry first lo!! Because the other me is going to come out!! Don't be surpise when you meet him, i also hate him, but what to do? He is me and i am him!! We are one person!! So, i can't do anything about him!! But i think most of my friends had meet him before, the other me!! so, he really help me a lot!! Hate and love him(i mean me). confuse?? ya, me too!! nevermind la!! you will understand one day! About me and him(i mean the other me). haha... xD

Happy birthday, lye heng

Today 11.06.07 is my friend lye heng birthday, so i want to wish him happy birthday lo! Now already big lo!!! Today is the first day back to school and i sleep late! Almost late to school!! HAHA!!! Very silly right?? Pat lin do not come to school. Hope he will get well soon!!!! Very worry about him!! Today get back almost all paper!! I want to thanks myself for no failing any subject yet!!!! haha........ so arrogant!!! Now i really need to study hard to get good result!!! no more playing!! just hope i can be the one i want to be!!!

The ranking of my friends inside my heart

Try to check you name in what number! I just going to write 31 name, so, if u don't see your name, sorry la! Please do not angry o !!! xD It do not mean you not important to me, just the place is limited!!! If you think your name in too low place, sorry again! Because i got too many friends!! But you still important to me!! Everyone i know is my friend, i love all my friends! You all means a lot to me!! Without your guys, i don't know what will i be! I want to say THANK YOU to all my friends!! No you all, than no me !!!!







Top 1 : YAP PAT LIN
Reason- He like my TWINS brother, he always there for me!!


Top 2: TAN GIM AUN
Reason- He is the only one i can trust to tell everything even my password!!


Top 3: LING SIE LEIN
Reason- I know him for almost 10 years lo!!! He is the best person i know!!


Top 4 : LEONG WAI SEONG
Reason- He is my First friend in my secondary school!! He just like my big brother!!


Top 5: YONG WAI KIT
Reason- He is my best friend during my primary school. We are in the same band!!


Top 6: HO WENG HONG
Reason- He is a very nice guy!! Good to friends and he say he is cute?? Dunno lo!!


Top 7: TAN HOOI TENG
Reason- She is the only girl in TOP 10!! I think you all know the reason lo!! xD


Top 8: CHEONG LIK JET
Reason- He is just good!! A good guy who always good to his friends!!!!


Top 9: WAN LYE HENG
Reason- He is a hardworking person!! When we all talk nonsense things, he is doing his math~!!


Top 10: LOW WAI KEE
Reason- I dunno any good things about him!! Just dunno lo!!! Maybe
he love her girl friend more than us!!! That is good ya??


Top 11: CHERYL LEE HUI XIAN
Reason- She is really a nice girl!! Cute, pretty and fun!!! Really enjoy to talk to her!!!!

Top 12: TAN JIA DING
Reason- He is the one who still remember me although we long time no see and he is so kind!!!

Top 13: LOI SEE WEI
Reason- She is a nice girl. I feel happy when talk to her!!! She is just like my sister!!!

Top 14: JOEY CHAN
Reason- Joey is a guy!! I stay at his house three time liao!!! He is a very friendly person!!!

Top 15: BOON JOON SEAN
Reason- I always go home with him!! Last time i am go home just by myself!! It is so lonely!! Now, i no longer a person!!

Top 16: LIM HOONG YAU(JASON)
Reason- He is very good in drawing!! He also look nice, handsome!! He is just good!!! Don't know why, just trust my feeling!!!

Top 17: FONG PUI YAN
Reason- She is a party girl!! But she still can get good result!!! Just want to be like her!! Be a party boy!!! and good in hw!!

Top 18: WATT THENG HON
Reason- He is a good senior!! He know how to take care good of his junior!! And he is the best student in my school!!

Top 19: GOPI
Reason- He is the only one non-chinese in my list!! He is a great person and he is extremely tall! So tall la him!!!

Top 20: WATT HING LUN
Reason- He is okie lo!! He like anime and a warm and nice people!! He is just won't say no to his friends!!!

Top 21: GOW GIN NIN
Reason- She is the only one i speak to when i at my secondary school, cos only we is come from the same school! She help me a lot!!1

Top 22: NG POH YI
Reason- She is good in every subject! She like a god!! I like to copy her work!! HAhahaha.................

Top 23: YONG CHIA YAN
Reason- She is a very funny girl!! Talk to her will never get boring!! She is just straight forward!!

Top 24: TANG POI MAN
Reason- She sit with me when we was in 6B!! So miss the day we had together lo!!!!

Top 25: HAR CHEN LOON
Reason- I same class with him for 3 year at my primary school!! He is just always is the one everyone look at!!

Top 26: NICOLE LEAW
Reason- She is my best friend lover!! Don't know why, she always look so ......... Don't know how to describe the feeling lo! ask her bf!!

Top 27: TAN JIA BAO
Reason- She is just cute lo!!! A Small sister to me!!! She just very kind and always give comment about my blog!!!

Top 28: WENDY FOON
Reason- She is a new friend!! She is friendly and nice! She also having a cute face and warm smile!!! xD

Top 29: SAI KHONG
Reason- He is the first one who give me comment in the cbox!! Thx lo!!! And i like his blog!!!

Top 30: WAYNE
Reason- Very like his blog!! We also like the same artist!! That is nicholas teo!! haha........

Top 31: MICHELLE
Reason- She is the first girl i link into my link list!!

That all for my friends list!!! IF I SPELL WRONG ANYONE NAME, pls let me know!!! okie?? THx lo!!!

Three day to go

Three more day, my holiday will be finish lo!!! The time passing by me without my notice!! Just hope i can rest more lo!! Now, i no more handphone! i don't know that is good or bad!! I think is both lo!! I am so stupid lo, handphone also can be stole!! The bad is i can't contact with my friend or my friends can't contact me!! But the good side is, no one can disturb me again with the stupid things!! i can use that no one call me to escape from the stupid activity lo!!!! hahaha...........XD. I am still sick lo!! feel so dizzy now!!! Today i go to school for add math extra class!! but i don't think it help!! Although my teacher is one of the author of the text book and she also write reference book for pelangi!! I still can't understand!!! so stupid right!! Having the best teacher but still don't know how to do!!! After finish my class, i go basketball!! Eventhough i am sick lo!!! What to do? For my friends ma!!! First, i don't want to play!! But they just no enough people to make it 5 to 5. So i need to join in lo!!! But thx god, I no need to run, or no, i sure faint already at the basaketball count!! Lik Jet is damn cool man!! only He and Pat LIn call me to get into the game!!! ( they do not know i am sick) I just like Lik Jet as a friend, he is a good friend!!! He really like to play basketball!! He walk to ss4d just for play basaketball lo!! i will not do that lo!!! so, i say he is really cool lo!!!!! okay la,want to rest lo!!so, i end here lo!!!!

Tired, Angry, Bad luck and Sick

I just come back from the Hell!!! Now i feel like want to died! but no hell pls!!! I am tired, angry, bad luck and sick now!!! The camping is suck!! It is the worst camping i ever go!! THe place, food, people just can describle with one word! That word is " Terrible". I really don't want to talk about that camping!! Now i am sick, having fever!!i really no mood to refresh back my memory about that camping! Maybe next time i will write about it!!!
I not only sick but my handphone is been stole by someone when i am on my way home!! Now i need to buy a new one!! I really PK liao!! My all contact,picture, song is gone!! arg.......................... I want to kick the one who stole my handphone!!!!! Pls la!!!!!!! Give me back my phone!!! I really need my phone and i don't want to buy a new one!!! WTF, i am really don't know what to do!! Help me pls!!!!!! someone,anyone!! I want to cry out loud!!!! haiz, i am stupid lo!!!!!!

3 days 2 night

I not going to online for 3 day because i will go to a camping trip for 3 days 2 night!!
so, hope to see your guys soon la!!
When i am back, i will write back everything about that camping!
so, wish me luck la!!