Illusion

Sometime, I hope there will be someone walk with me under the rain, Sometime I wish there is someone walk with me on the silent street, someone i want someone to hold my hand suddenly, without any reason. But I guess all of this will be a dream, perhaps illusion.

There is something about love. Something special about it. That's the reason why everyone hope to be loved... But do you know that love actually can be an illusion. As I writing this post, i am listening to my fav song -Footprints in the sand by Leona Lewis. This song is about friendship. Ya.. The only love lasting is the love of friendship. Is kinda hard for me to think about other kind of love for this stage. Perhaps I am getting tired. Tired to try out, I should give myself a break, to figure out love is real or illusion.

There is always few stage of a relationship. First there was you and me, then the you and me become us.. If it do not work out, there is no more us, even worst case, no more you and me. We will be completely stranger. I dont like it, why we can't be friend? Why must become stranger? I already tired. Ya.. I am.

We always have the illusion love can last forever, actually forever is a term, a term or word that make you feel better only. When we start up a relationship, we will started to think very far. How far can the relationship go, things that we can do together, what do it feel if we staying together and etc, but who even think what will make this relationship break. I do, i will think if we break, what will be the reason. Perhaps I am the one who thinking too much

Actually I also dont know what do I want to write in this post.. All I know is I am tired... Tired of everything. I guess let's just focus on my study better. I wish I can tell you I hate you, Hate you for being so important to me, hate myself for not dare to let you know all I want is not just being a friend for you.. but is ok.. I guess i shall keep it to myself

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Happy 20 Years Old

Yup.. I am 20 years old now. Happy birthday to myself.

Thanks to my classmate, my secondary friends and other friends that celebrated my birthday with me. I love you guys.. and thanks for loving me... :)

xoxo

Ryan L

The Little Lion

10 more Days...

Yeah, 10 more days to go... I ask for nothing. Just a normal dinner with my beloved friend and world peace. Present is additional happiness. And i hope my wishes will come true.. will write more about it when the day come...

Just recover from sick and now getting better

Ryan L

The Little Lion

LOVE by Jaeson Ma

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

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Someone, Something

You got to believe in something, Something more than you can touch, taste or see. Life is too hard to go through it alone, without something to hold on to... Glee, 2010

I heart this line from Glee.. I always big fans of Glee.. The season 1 was fabulous and season 2 is even better. The song their sang always touched my heart. Although the storyline is not very special but the way they speak out though song is great. I always love this kind of movie or drama, such as Chicago, Dreamgirls, or chinese movie - Perhaps . Love.

I think i will go to hell after I die, but I guess it too early to know that. So now i will enjoy my life. But ya, we do need to believe in something or someone. Some people choose to believe Him, Some people choose to believe money ( my friend), and me choose to believe myself. Perhaps when the time I can't think well, or I am not sure about myself, I will go for my friend. I think my friend is lot more better than God. No offence for this statement, I just state out what do I think. My friends always is a great friends. Especially those who reading this post now, just want to say thank you and I love you guys. When the time I get into bottom of my life, you guys pull me up and cheer me up again. I do think friend is lot more important to me rather than any religion. I do respect all the religion and I believe there is the reason people choose religion and I respect that. Because life is too hard to go through alone, Religion make them feel better. And my friends makes me feel better. Thank you.

I miss my friend sometime. When I am alone, I feel like pick up the phone and calling someone, but something stopped me. Perhaps is my ego. I don't like my friend to see me sad. Share only good but keep the bad to myself is always me. I just do not hope to get sympathy from any people. I hate that kind of eyes sign. But a warm or surprise call from friend always makes me smile. And thanks My cutie for calling me from UK. I heart u so much. And I miss you.

If there is something important to me, I think will be movie and music. For most of my friends, they know I love movie ALOT. I just love to watch movie. No reason, simply love it. And music is the best cure for sadness. Listen to that kind of sad song, make the emotion even low, and eventually lead to more emo.

Goodbye Sadness, Hello Sunshine.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Walk Away

I walk away from you,

I walk away from him,

I walk away from them,

I walk away from everyone...

Walk away from everything I dont like

Walk away from the memory

Walk away, I just want to walk away.

Never think of turning back,

because it is one way road,

It just like our life, you only can regret but not go back to make it right,

Think before you say anything,

Think before you do anything,

You might regret it, and sorry is no cure

Look at the shadow,

he so lonely...

always alone and no one know what he think about,

he always is the best friend...

Be with you for your whole life

he is the best supporting actor..

never let himself overcome you...

Sometime, try to look at your shadow,

He tried to say hi, and you know that..

It just we choose to ignore our shadow

but he will always be there... you just cant get rid of him..

Just like we choose to ignore the memory that we dislike...

Even we tend to forget it, but it will be still there

We keep it and put it into some place that people can't find

And seal it with your tear and sadness...

No one can walk away from they fate..

Just take it and get used to it

You will get better life

Good bye

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Alone

I am alone
All alone by myself...
I came to this world alone
And i left this world alone...

I believe that nothing is eternal

Eternal just a word that comfort people..

To make people believe that you can have something forever

but they were wrong..

There is no such thing

I used to be alone

I alone to class,

Back to room alone,

Breakfast alone, Dinner alone,

Dream alone, Talk alone...

I dont mind to die, but before i die,

i wish to walk half of the earth

I wish to talk to someone that are really know me

I wish to try bungy jump

I wish to see my family in good condition

When i die, I do not wish to see people cry

I hope they are smiling

because I used to be a part of their memory

A part of their life

Lonely is my best friend

and Ignorance is my new best friend

Ignorance is Bliss.

And I am too tired to know about everything

Dead is not scary, What makes people scare is how to die..

Because we can't forecast the future, we tend to avoid talking about it,

but we all know, it will come soon or later.. Everyone is the same

No exception even you are the richest man in the world or strongest man in the world

Die will come to you

Pray will help

but I choose to not bonded with anything

Eat while you can,

When u too old to eat, u will miss that feeling,

Love when you found the right one

Dont scare to take the first step

I think i gonna watch Eat, Pray, Love soon

Julia Roberts my FAV... I damn into her...

watch alone perhaps

hmm..who knows?

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Sad Case

Put everything in one envelope...
Till the world end, I will die and and the secret will go with me....
When i die, I want become the wind...
Carry away your sadness and bring you the happiness...

First it was you and me.. then we become us...
But it ended with you and me again with no longer talk to each other...
No such word as FOREVER. but i believe that it is a time frame.
Perhaps your forever is 3 months... and my forever is 3 years
But is ok. As long we had it before, it is enough for me...

bye bye
Wont see u again for a period...
at least i will avoid to do so...
and i will be fine and stronger...


Ryan L
The Little Lion