30 years old

Surprisingly. I realize that my passion toward my dream is still there... And surprisingly, what I wish to do when I am 30 years old for now I still feel like doing it. Perhaps I just getting bit tired. When I tired, I tend to be selfish, tend to be ignorance, tend to be emo, tend to be temper. That is what I want to do when i am 30 years old. I want to runaway from here and perhaps further my studies when i am 30 years old. I still remember I saying this when I was form 1 and form 5, and last year and now. I still want to do it.

I just want to Runaway, escape from here, and get a new life at a foreign country, start to know some stranger, start to speak the language I might don't know ( perhaps just English..:p), work part time at a restaurant, sitting at the park reading some book... walking myself to some place with beautiful sunset. I guess it will be just a dream. A dream that might not come true. But at least I dare to dream. I want to run to new place do not mean that I won't back because M'sia still is my home, I just want to feel the other country cultural, their living style, and again enjoying life as a student. Before I am 30 years old, I shall work very very hard, to get myself enough money to save a new life around 2-3 years overseas. If that time I still having my loved one to be with me, I shall ask my loved one to follow me.

Most of my friends said it will be hard to be true, because how many people can really put down the commitment and responsible just for a dream. Perhaps that time, I need to resign my dream job, sell my house, sell my car, farewell with all my friends, and letting go lot of thing. Is that worth to do so just to study overseas in such age? For me, it will be worth. I believe it will.

For now, i just study hard, then get a great job, enjoy my life with my loved one, my buddy, my family and maybe my pet in the future.

Actually I just getting too tired from the stress and pressure i having now...Assignment, Exam, Friendship.... but what I glad is my relationship at least is the only thing can cheer me up now...I guess when i think of my dream, I will be fine again.

Ryan L

The Little Lion