Life - part 2

Life was not so easy for me lately. Having many obstacles and just some thing to bother me. I just don't like people do something behind me as i take them as my friend. I just somehow cannot understand what it is all about. Maybe i just too stupid to understand what is happening now. But do i care? I not really care cos i am that kind of person that very easy to over my feeling. Mean that i will not affected to this kind of feeling for so long. Some time, do feel like fed up with them for not really want to talk to them at all..But what to do? When it become a part in your life, you just can't think that way. I now dont know what am i crapping now..haha..Sorry for wasting your time reading it..

Just want to say life can't happen as what you want.

One more thing....
I still haven open up the present that given by justin because i want to wait till my birthday only open it up... But i sure i going to love it..
This is the first time i get my birthday present one month early...Thank you dear..You such a great person..(i called justin dear because he like my brother and we do call each other as dear, Dont think another side). He always being so nice to me....Hehe..Thank you lo justin.... appreciate what you done

Holding yesterday,living today,expecting tomorrow
Ryan L

Three day working at FCUK..

Today is been three days i worked in FCUK...For me, it is kind of good experience because can work in such branded shop..I crazy about branded thing..Almost all my friends know that, if you don't know, now you know. I am just love the most expensive thing..but the problem is i don't have money to buy it.Just can see it from outside only. Sad..Now since i work at FCUK... only a word can describe me now...Fuck.... I never thought of the price would be so expensive. It is more expensive than topman. Even if i get 30% discount, it still damn fucking expensive..Hehe,since i working at FCUK, i can use the word FUCK! I am not a bad boy, ok~~ I just a good boy who like to talk bad word.

Today, i found out that i can wear damn freaking small shirt and it show that my arms are damn freaking thin and like bamboo. It just FREAKING thin..I just scare to look at my arms. I want to GAIN WEIGHT...To make my body look at least ok..now is totally underweight, and damn freaking scaring people... Can't wear tight cloth because will expose i look like skeleton walking at the street, at night will scare off people.

Today i also smell like FCUK, because i played with the fragrant at there. And just spreed it on my body..It do smell ok, but not as good as the one i smell before, i dont know what it called again but that one is the nicest smell of among all i tried now. I miss the smell...Don't when i can smell it again..

Exam coming soon, i going to die as just i am drying now..everyday damn tired and not mood to study..Plus always flirt around and can't really focus on doing my revision. Just see how pathetic i am. I just like that......Someone that not so smart but still want to stay at the science class and hate math so much but still want to take math~ All of this is because of what? Pride? I dont know la..i just pathetic and hopeless...

Start from today, my birthday dinner will be counted down into one month. Mr Not So Popular birthday dinner just expect at least got one people show up for it..I doing my best now to plan it now. Plus now i work at FCUK, i think i do got enough money for the dinner to treat one or two person. But do you guys suposed to treat me right? haha..Don't care la, just hoped got someone to show up on that day.Thank you so much.

That all for today, i am tired now. Going to sleep and tomorrow get back my sim card..yeah..

Life of the Lifeless? I see it seem to be now
Ryan L

FCUK.....

I started my part time job at French Connection as know as FCUK.... Kinda tired now..update tomorrow... But i do want to remind that 25th of october is my birthday dinner. If you do feel like want to eat dinner with this always not the Mr. Popular man, can let me know... oh ya..i cant use my hand phone for three days because sim card is confiscated by teacher.. bad luck..

Today get my first birthday present for this year..Thank you Justin...

Happy
Ryan L

Tag x2

1.The last person to tag you ?
Do not remember...It been forever i never to tag

2.What relationship of you with him/her?
If i don't know, how i know the relationship? but i sure he or she is my friends only i will do the tag

3.Your first impression towards him/her?
Same answer as question 2..........

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
Same answer as question 3

5.The most memorable word that he/she has say to you?
Same answer as question 4

6.If he/she becomes your lover,you will...
Same answer as question 5

7.If he/she becomes your enemy,you will...
Same answer as question 6

8.If he/she becomes your lover,he/she has to improve on...
Same answer as question 7

9.If he/she becomes your enemy,the reason is...
Same answer as question 8

10.The most desirable thing to do for he/she is?
Same answer as question 9

11.The overall impression to he/she is....
Same answer as question 10

12.How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
At last, i can answer this question.... I do think people will either love me nor hate..hehehe
because i just handsome, bitcy, crazy and cool...

13.The character you like of yourself is?
Myself??

14.On contrary,the character you hate of yourself is?
Not brave enough

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
Me,myself and I

16.For the person who cares and likes you,say something about them.
I love you all

17.Ten people to tag
i)Cheryl
ii)Jia Bao
iii)Taira
iv)Gim Aun
v)Afie
vi)Wendy
vii)Anyone
viii)Anyone
ix)Anyone
x)Anyone

18.Who is number 2 having relationship with?
No idea

19.Is number 3 a female or male?
Dont know, She is my part time gf, you say leh?

20.If number 7 and 10 be together would it be a good thing?
No idea

21.How about number 5 and 8?
No idea

22.What is number 1 studying about?
Form 3

23.When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Lately??

24.Is number 4 a single?
Nope..

25.Talk something about 6
She is just a nice girl lo..


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3 Golden Rules. state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself. The people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.. No tag backs!

::. Love myself very much

::.Day dream for five hour just looking at the sky

::. Can non-stop reading a book for whole day

::. Cried when Cyndi died..........My hamster lo

::. Hate math so much until want to drop math

::. Hate myself that not handsome

::.Messenger make me say bad word cos always cant sign in

::. i crazy in love with my blog

::. I love all my friends....

::. Can online from morning to midnight

::. never get angry easily

I TAGGGGGGGG.....

Marcus
Taira
Afie
and who want to do la...............

New Hair Cut and Look Good Now

Hehe...Today just get a new hair cut. It also one of the most expensive hair cut i ever had. But do it worth it? We will see it. hehe... Today just feel kinda tired and just want to rest for awhile. i want to thank Candy for go with me to cut hair. I think i had wasted her time, sorry o....next time i will go anywhere you want to go with you..hehehe...

Birthday coming soon. I am planing my birthday dinner now and i do hope can make it. But it is Thursday, so i dont know should i change it to Friday or Saturday. Going to get the invitation list ready before October 15, set the place and making sure who will attend before october 20.

This is my sexy 18. So i do want something special this year.

Something special?
Ryan L

One Month And Six Days to Go.....

One month and six days to go...

The world sudden turn silent and the word are not longer be heard.....

Make a wish and hope him will be happy....

Love him and just hope he will be happy,

Just hope he will always take care himself,

And don't be so stupid and put so much expectation on something

The result only will be like that.......

This year he just hope will be himself,

The world will turn silent and left him there alone,

This is what he asking for only...

Just need some silent moment,
Ryan L

Wall.E

He staring at his computer, looking at the word that appear on the screen, he started to think. His mind was going to blank when he is reading the words. Somehow the words like a spear that pass over his heart and left a hole in the middle of the heart. He got an empty hole inside his heart now.He hardly can breath, not even feel his heartbeat. He know this is the feeling. The feeling that are really making him to being the bad person. He never think of by throwing a rubbish just like that will cause all of this. ( to be contiuned..............)

Lately just watched Wall.E. And it make me think about a lot of stuff. It is a great story and I almost cried when watching it. I love the moment where Eve find out that Wall.E done so many thing for her and still be with her every moment even she is unactivated. This is really touched my heart. How many people willing to do that? I dare to say not much, because most of the human are selfish and self-center. They just care about themself, and never think about the others. Not even sometime lover also do that to the one they love. We can't blame them because it is the nature of human. From the ancient we see wars, million of thousand of wars. Most of the wars actually is can be avoided but because of selfish and their own pride, wars is he way to show it how strong and good they are. I hate to watch war movie because i think war not suppose to exist in this world, it take away life and lives. It take away everything about happiness. Don't tell me you do enjoy involving in war. if i heard that kind of answer, I am the first one who kick you.
Wow, just crapping again. Go back to Wall.E.

Recycle is one of the message in the movie. In real life, how many of us do recycle? I think not much. Because for them recycle is just like something that nothing to do with them and it is a wasting time and energy to do it. You do think about it before you throwing something, is that too wasting time, if i want to throw something, i just throw la, why must think so much. You are wrong. We must know the important of recycle, even you do not recycle, please do not throwing the rubbish anywhere. For me, i do practice recycle. People who know me know i seldom use tissue cause i think tissue is just something that only reducing the amout of tree. Then, i try to not use so much plastic bag when i go shopping. Sometime i even bring my shopping bag to shopping like an auntie, Hehehe..I don't care about what people think,i just want to do something to help our enviroment. You can do something too, even a small thing can change everything. Don't force yourself to do it. Make it a habit and practice it everyday.

The love that Wall.E to Eve is just great. I hope got someone like Wall.E that love me so much. Hehe. Love is all about caring and accepting. You do learn to care about the one you love and accept everything of your love one. Accept his/her good or bad, advantages or weaknesses, and make it become a part of you. Not only that, love can change someone, like Eve that don't know how important to hold hand, but after knowing Wall.E, she started to change, she start to have her own thinking, own way to do thing.Love do got the power, it is depend on you how to use the power.

I do love Wall.E. It is the great movie and i think one of the best movie of all time. Love it.

Wall.E thinking way
Ryan L

The 200th post

This is my 200th post of this blog. After all the babbling, crapping, ridiculous,boring, anger, love, touching and lot more emotion of the post of my past, now it reached the number 200. What a great number. But i took 2 years to reached 200 post. It is kind of slow compare to others. Since this is a meaningful post, i just want to write out what do i think about blogging.

Lot of people ask me why do you blog, what so fun about blogging? Actually blogging is nothing fun because you just put your words or picture in a web page that belonged to you. i feel so great about reading my own post in my own blog, In blog, you can write about anything and everything. Just like me, I write about my life, my feeling, when someone birthday, i make a post for them, when i addicted to a song, i will post out the lyrics, when i feel bad, angry, disappointed or terrible, i will write a post about that. I ever scold a teacher before in my blog. HEHE.... I know that is not good but that time i am really damn freaking angry of that teacher. Sometime you will see some bad word in my post, i won't because of scare people hate and not to write that bad words here, cos in reality sometime i do speak bad word but most of the time i am a good student.

Camwhore freak should get yourself a photoblog cause it just will make you feel better when everyone is commented about your picture no matter ulgy or pretty, you dare to show it and we dare to see it. In this blog, i got many memory here, happy nor sad, good nor bad, it just always will be me. And i just love blogging.

What is the advantage of blogging? I think it help me in my essay writing. Now i can write an essay with easily and not really facing any problem to write an essay but it is all about my grammar and spelling mistake only. I need to learn from the begining and i do love when people correcting my mistake.

And i do love read blog, first of all, the MUST read blog for me is Ryan Lem's blog. I love his blog cause it is simply a great blog. It make me think. Think about many thing. Sometime what he wrote is just what am i thinking. hehe..My all time favourite blog. If you got time, do read it and you will get what i meant. Some Flamer blog do cheer up my day. They are just so lame and FLAME. Don't get what i mean? Just go Elvin, Rachel and Pamela's blog take a view and you will know what the crapping i am talking now. Then certain blog just like won't update forever. I just hate that kind of blogger, just close ur blog ok? No need me go there view to see got update or not. In my old school, it just me so crazy about blogging, the others is prefer gaming, dota-ing more. so when i write something bad about them, they wont know.hehe... After that, i do read some chinese blog but mostly is Candy's blog.

THE PAST
the post i love it so much:
My first post => Monday, April 30, 2007 ~ Friends
A post that talk about how do i feel when i be with them, that time really can't cope with them.(kinda emo post for the first post)

Monday, June 25, 2007 ~Walk back into the past to see the future! I'm lost in the time travel
This is my first poem i ever wrote. I think it kinda silly but i think it is a good try for me. Worth to read it cos i got edited version later on.
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/06/walk-back-into-past-to-see-future-im.html

Sunday,July 1, 2007 ~ Everybody's Dream Handphone.
Is a Must REad Post. Go and read NOW........
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/06/handphones-nowadays-are-getting-more.html

Sunday, July 8,2007 ~777 - A long Day
This is a post that i mention before that i scolded a teacher in my blog...damn angry that day.

Monday,July 16, 2007 ~Camp motivation Y2Y
This camp is kinda fun and also make a lot of friends that still good friend now like Yee Keong...

Thursday,July 19,2007 ~ Walking back into the past to see the future. Lost in time travel (Edited)
This is the edited version of my first poem..hehe By my twin bro - Ryan Lem.
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/07/walking-back-into-past-to-see-future.html

Thursday,September 20,2007 ~ Looking at Far Far Away Kingdom
This is the post i think it got kinda good meaning in it...Love it
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/09/looking-at-far-far-away-kingdom_20.html

Sunday.October 21, 2007 ~ Birthday
This is how i celebrate my birthday last year.... Miss it so much now...with my best friend pat lin
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/10/birthday.html

Wednesday,December 5,2007 ~ Sick, Work and Friend Having problem
this post just got a picture that make it so nice, click and see that picture
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/12/sick-work-and-friend-having-problem.html

Hate me or love me
Another poem
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2008/01/hate-me-or-love-me.html

That all for now la.. This year d post u just go view by yourself~ heheheehe

Some post u should take a look:
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/08/excellent-poems-by-not-so-famous-poets.html
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2007/11/some-silly-shot-from-me.html
http://ryancross23.blogspot.com/2008/01/picture.html

The number 200 is included the draft because certain post i just want to keep it to myself..
hehehe.....















Happy 200~~
Ryan L

Procrastinate

New word for the day
procrastinate -

1.	postpone doing what one should be doing;
2.	postpone or delay needlessly;

For me, i really wanted to study but i keep procrastinate it for days by days. For everything i did at the past, i don't think it is enough to cover up what i need to study for until now. For certain reason i just don't want to been left out at the outside of the door this time although i thought i already used to it. but somehow i just don't know what to do with the subject that i studying now. I really don't have much interest in science compared to business. I love cooperate world. I love 9 to 5. i love to go clubbing after my work is finish and go home at 2am. Hehe..,This is the life i been after-ing now. But stay in science like nothing to with my dream.So sometime i do felt a bit fed up about what am i studying now.But however the feeling will be gone when i started to read the book. I think it is because of I do love reading, no matter what book, i just love reading. Reading make me change my perspectives on certain thing. But i do know i love cooperate world and i going into it no matter what i going to take now. Maybe i just get a degree that do with science and go back to cooperate world later on without knowing anything about it.Hehehe....

Now what i need to do is get my end-year exam ready and i hope i can get a not bad result. A not bad is enough for now. Maybe next year i will set my target higher to at least B. Hehehe....Hope i can do it.Just somehow i dont't have any confident to do it. I just need to work harder.

Lately addicted to photoshop~~hehe.. so just play with it. It is kinda fun. So i think the post in coming i will put up a picture that already been edit by me.


Hehe.....what do you think? I know nothing different.
Next up going to doing something to the face..

Just enjoying being nerdy
Ryan L

Pathetic

Pathetic is the only word that can describe me, I wanted so much to get this over but i just can't do it. It is hard to forget someone that already inside your heart. I just want the one to be happy even i not the one who stand besides it. Do i look happy when i know someone is dominating the one heart, and it is not me that it need. Sad is a will but wish the one to be happy is what i can do now.

I am a pathetic person that will happy being in your life even just for one day, Just in hope you will be happy. Promise me that you will be happy no matter what happen. You still will be a part of my life and I will remember the time we had together that now it seem it wont happen again. I appreciate every words you given me, I will keep it inside my heart and just will be inside my heart.

Thank you for the sweet words and it just will be the sweet moment in my life.........

Love not longer love
Ryan L

Part Of 6BT

Taken: Year 1685, August 27

Happy Birthday to Siau Chein

This post supposed to be post at yesterday but because i not at home yesterday so i can't do this post. Although it do a bit late, but i still want to post it now!
Yesterday 12.9.08 was Siau Chein(Candy) birthday~ Yeah~~ I want to wish her happy birthday. I know her not really long time, i think is around this year June when form 6 is started. My first impresson on her is she is a very cute girl but her name is kinda hard to remember~~ Siau Chein.. Really a bit hard for me to remember at first but now i won't forget it. She is a smart and nice girl. At first, she do not belong to my class- 6BT. but i am glad she had asked to transfer to our class and make my day in the class much more better. Now she is sit beside me. She from Sepang and she love to eat. The way she eat not like a girl. You can't imagine how much she can eat. If you don't know her, you will be scared by her.

I am lucky to have siau chein as my friend. She is pretty, nice, funny, smart, good and lot more good value.Somehow, i just feel glad that i have her as my friend~Thank you for being my friend~

We like to camwhore~ the picture below can prove that~ haha~ Thank you for willing to take picture with someone that look like a nerdy boy!! haha~ i do know how do i look like!









HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HOPE YOU CAN ALWAYS BE HAPPY AND JUST SMILE A LOT. sTAY PRETTY AND CUTE~~