1. You do look short as you said.
2. So young already so many white hair, think a lot huh?
3. You look exactly same as your photo.
4. You do not look like 21, do not think like 21, do not act like 21 ( I take that as compliment)
And the top comment is :
You so quiet. Do you like to talk?
Yes. That's is my weakness. I know that. I hardly can stand out myself from a group conversation. That's just me. I just don't like to interrupt people when they are talking, I also dont like people interrupt my talk. There are always one philosophy in mind : What you want people do to you, you just do it to people; what you dont want people do it to you, you just dont do it. Sound like an excuses for myself huh?
People who know me I would say only my classmates or a very very few friends. I can be talk a lot. But when I with someone i dont know, or someone I just know, I just can't talk well. Perhaps that's just me. Many people missed the chance to know me more because I kinda protective and I not usually share my thought with people I barely know, not even my family, not my friends or my dog. oh gosh, I like to keep everything to myself. And I enjoyed to do so. For the people who dont know me, they might think I am selfish, arrogant, hard to be with, but actually I am like that. Just it take more time for me to accept a new people, a new friend. Too many bad experience and too many bad friend out there. So I have to protect myself and do not let anyone come closer and have any chance to hurt me. I hurt enough. There are enough wound and scar in my heart. So you no need come to add some new wound and scar to it. thanks
I dont mind to be alone. In the matter of fact, I always alone. I used to be alone. From a kids, I go school alone, I come back from school alone, I took the bus alone, I eat alone, till now I also eat alone. I read alone, I play alone. And I dont have child mates, I dont have neighbors friend, I not even have a friend can share my secret. But is okay. I told myself everything will be fine and I just need to love myself.
Suddenly this moment, saw a tweet and messaged a people. I hope he is okay. I know he will be fine.
Perhaps I need some changes. Start from learning how to join in a conversation, learn how to interactive with people and smile. When someone are smiling, the world become better. When I see someone smile, my mood become better. I am a pretender but I never fake my smile. I might fake my words, my act but never my smile.
Just want to say I am one of the most lucky person in the world for knowing some great friends. And I will try my best to play to role of a friend. I used to be a not so good friend and I promised myself I will change. Sometime I do need a friend. I just know I need it.
Playlist is playing : If I die Young. I wonder if I die young, will there be anyone come to my funeral? Will anyone will cry for me? Will anyone will hate me forever? Perhaps I just need to let it be..what will be will be ....
Ryan L
The Little Lion
