Tired of

Sometime I just tired. Tired of people looking down on me, tired of people telling me what to do for my life, tired of everyone just the same. Sometime I will just wish my life is different. It still my dream to start my life at a new place where no one know me,  and i can do whatever i want, say whatever i feel like to say.

Out of suddenly. I miss Charming, Cindy and Leo. Hope you guys will miss me sometime. I just tired. When I tired, I will just think of them and it make me happy.  And i will be fine. I just need someone call me up and tell me you gonna be fine. Just hang on there but guess I dont have such friend yet. I won't give up my life, just gonna take a break and give myself some time out.

And I never left, I still reading blog, just lazy to update mine. Due to lot of thing happened to me and I just don't want to talk about it. And i'm glad that people still care about my blog. Thanks guys.

Do not plan to write long but just want to say thank you and sorry.

Oh ya, I registered myself as a student and I'm gonna be a degree student and will complete my degree in two years.

p/s: Charming, Cindy and Leo is my hamster. I like to name my pets with the name I like. Charming and Cindy is because of Cinderella and Leo is watched too much of Charmed.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

10 Things Your Dog Would Tell You

10 Things Your Dog Would Tell You.... 
1. My life is likely to last 10 to 15 years. Any separation from you will be painful: remember that before you get me. 
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me. 
3. Place your trust in me- it is crucial to my well being.
4. Do not be angry at me for long, and do not lock me up as punishment.
5. You have your work, your entertainment,and your friends. I only have you.
6. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understands your words, I understand your voice when it is speaking to me.
7. Be aware that how ever you treat me, I will never forget.
8. Remember before you hit me that I have teeth that could easily hurt you, but I choose not to bite you because I love you.
9. Before you scold me for being uncooperative,obstinate,or lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I might not be getting the right food, or I have been out too long, or my heart is getting to old and weak.
10. Take care of me when I get old; you too will grow old. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say: "I cannot bear to watch" or "Let it happen in my absence." Everything is easier for me if you are there, even my death.
Remember that I love you.

Happy Chinese New Year

I been away for too long and now I am back. Like serious, I missed out lot of thing during this period. The reason I been missng is because I working for the last 9 days. Included the first and second days of Chinese New Year. So yea, here I am now. Back to my normal life. And I guess that’s so much to update and I not even know where to start with.

Let’s just start with what had I do for the past 9 days. A friend of mine asked me want to join him to work as tour guide or not and without thinking much I just promised him and attended a short and and obtain the temporary licenese for 15 days. So I been worked as a part time tour guide during this CNY period. And for someone who don’t like to talk like me, it was a huge challege for me. Because this job require lot of talking and it need to introduce your country to the tourist. So this is one of the hardest part time job ever. I think I did a not bad job because my tourist like me very much and I want to thank them for giving me an unforgettable CNY eve. I think it is a good experience and I learned a lot from this job. At least I improved my communication skill and I know I need to talk more and I can do that if I want. I been travel from JB to Melacca to Port Dickson to Genting to KL. But no photo taken because I need to guide them. So yea, for one time, I travel without taking any photo. And I get to learn lot of thing of this tourism industry. And I know what to do or what not to do when I travel next time with a tour guide.

And the best part is I earned a bit of pocket money for the 9 days of non stop working. ( actually is 8.5 days). I think I just need to save a bit more to get the down payment of my own car. Actually I still thinking and calculating what car should I get for myself but I think no rushing because I just started my job and I think for this moment just save some money first before making any big plan. But I do hope to get a car for myself before the year end or the beginning of next year. I am considering between the cheapest Proton or slightly expensive Toyota. With my current salary, if I get Toyota, the commitment will be too high. But living in KL without a car is just so inconvenience. Because everywhere is so far and actually I don’t like to ask people to fetch although I know some of them won’t mind but I just no like it. So getting a car is the plan and now the question is should I save longer for a better car or should get the cheapest car first and change it in future. Hmm… Let’s the time and money I have decide.

Although I worked for the past 8.5 days, I manage to get 0.5 days to gather with some friends. And I had a great time hanging out with them. This is what we called life. You need a group of friend that love the same thing with you and you feel comfortable to hang out with. I been missed lot of times for the gathering and this time finally I get to join. I was kinda happy because I do need a break after working for so many days.

And this is a special thanks to Calvin for nominated me in his GABLO. Actually fame is nothing but it feels good when you see people voted for you. And I would like to say Thank you to Calvin and my reader. I don’t have any expectation so even one vote it make me feel happy for the whole day. And yea, sometime we just need not to care about what other people said, some  might just jealous of what you having. And it really sad that some people are so childish and immature. Although I never meet Calvin before but I can feel he’s a good person and I will be on his side for this matter. Just do what you feel is right and there’s always someone try to pull us down when you are doing something good. It just because you at the position where they never will make it and all they call do is just try to pull you down and destroy you. Just be who you are and I just want to say: I’m always a fans of Calvin blog and thanks to him, my blog got few more reader. We always love you Calvin

Last but not least, Chinese New Year everyone. And I had decided to donate all my angpow money to SPCA and PAWS. It all about giving back to the society this year for me and I choose to help the homeless doggie. Ever since I have Derek in my life, it been a good life for me. So I hope to help other doggie. So yea, that’s all for the update and hopefully it wont be long for my next post.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

New Challenge

Life is not that hard if you see it in a positive way. Everyone got their own problem and pressure. As long you know the way to handle it, you will be just fine. 2012 is a brand new year for me, from a student to working adult, I think that’s the biggest change in last year.

And I get my driving license also. And something weird happened yesterday. My boss suddenly ask me go to see him. First I tot I did something wrong or he found out that I always Facebook and read blog during office. But guess I worried too much because what he want to say is totally different from what in my mind. He want to promote me and do some adjustment to my salary. I was kinda shocked at first because I just worked here for one month and still in the process of learning, and I not those very good employee because I left office everyday at 5 sharp and I did some mistake also.And I still got 2 months probation period But don’t know why boss want to pass me a portfolio and want me to in charge of it. Actually I not really like that because I still learning and there are lot of thing I still don’t know. It is not a good news for me but a burden or pressure to me. Just because I’m new in this company and there are lot of thing for me to learn.

I just hope I can do it. As I said before, life is not that hard if you see it in another way. I just gonna take it as a challenge and I gonna win it. Just gonna try my best for it and make it as a motivation to myself.  

And my 2012 resolution got 5 things :

1. Family
2. Career
3. Derek
4. Gym
5. Friends

And I just gonna focus on this 5 thing in this year. For travel part I think let’s see my pocket and my luck. If I can get cheap flight ticket and a good destination, then it will be my October trip. And I need to start to a new plan for my life since everything changed already.

Ryan L

The Little Lion 

Passed

I have a good news and a bad news for the beginning of the 2012. The good news is I finally resolved one of the last year resolution which is get myself a car license. Although is late a bit but yeah, I passed my driving test after three atempt. That’s suppose to be my 21 years old present for myself but is okay. At least that’s the first good news happened in 2012. I’m sure this year gonna be a great year and I truly believe in that.

And the bad news is the road gonna have another bad driving skill driver and I know my driving skill is really bad. I think I won’t drive for this few year until I really ready for it. Even during practice or the test time I was so scare and can’t control it well. And I still cannot see myself driving a car on the road. It just but scary to do so plus kl everywhere also jam. and accident rate in kl is just so high and I don’t want to part of the rate. So I guess I just gonna put that license at home to display only. One of my achiement in life. I know for certain people driving is no big deal but for someone like me who not even know how to ride a bicycle well, I considered myself make a big step in my life. And I do proud of myself.

The next post gonna set some resolution to be resolved in 2012. And hope everyone do have a good start of the year. And Chinese New year is coming soon. I’m gonna work for the whole CNY. And I’m sure everyone is excited about it. I think is time to do some shopping too. 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Belief

I wanted to write this post long time ago. Now finally get the chance to write it. For those who don't as know anything about me, I'm a free thinker. And I do not believe in any religion in this world. People always ask : Do you believe in God? If you deny the existence of God, you will be burn in hell forever. First of all, I never say I do not believe in God. Just I choose not to involve myself into any religion. The reason is very simple, there are just one God and God cannot be defined, cannot be named. They no need our worship nor burn those paper. They are just there, and nothing else we need to do for them.They just wish human to be good and be nice to everyone. Maybe you think this is ridiculous but that's only my thought and it do not harm anyone, and I do not ask any people to quit or stop believe in their religion. Just myself choose not to have it but I still very respect every religion. and I still will join those religion activity to know more about it. Actually I'm very interest in religion because there are two thing gonna change the world and one of it is religion. The other one is culture and art. I always wonder how people live under the strong influence of religion such as people of Tibet, India, Italy or even Turkey or Arab. That's the reason why those places are my must visit destination. To understand more about their religion and culture.

For someone like me that do not have any religion, it is important to have some belief to make sure when I am down or helpless, i got something to hold on to. I got three thing or principal in my life. There are Myself, Money and Luck. I need to believe in myself a lot. I believe that no one will treat you nice, even your closest friend will have the probability to betray you one day. Life is a series of unpredictable and unfortunate event. I have the practice of never talk bad about someone, never angry when someone talked bad about you. It just life. When everyone left you, you just have yourself. So it is important to me to believe in myself. I just cannot give up on myself. and I always appreciated those people who treated me as friends and I will let it be for those who hate me. I know there are a lot of people hate me but guess what, I don't care. Life is like that, no one gonna live forever, and I no need to waste my time to care about those hater, I rather use the time to cherish those people who care for me.

Second is Money. Why money? You surely think i'm very materialistic. I will not deny I love money. If you know me for some period, you will know that I worked lot of part time before like promoter, those Pc fair, matta fair, concert crew, event crew, telemarketing, give flyer, data entry, club waiter, restaurant waiter and lot more.Actually I don't like the work, I just love the paid. I think money is just important to us. Don't ever say money is not important, you will regret for saying that when u got no money at all. There's a reason why all of us work so hard for. I think 99% is because of the money and 1% is fulfill their dream. I came from a consider poor family so I understand that earn lot of money is the main motivation for me to study and work. I think nothing wrong to admit you love money as long you earn it in a right and legal way.

Third is luck. I always believe in luck. In an old chinese saying, there are five element to be successful in life.
1. Fate - It cannot be changed. It already fixed for the moment you was born. We cannot choose our parents. We just have to accept the fate and live it.
2. Luck: - It cannot be changed too. Luck is around us. There are time we are good luck, there are time we are bad luck. We only can wish that bad luck time is short and you have longer period of good luck. Everyone will have bad luck. No need worry or complaint about that.
3. FengShui- This actually proven scientific will help us to improve our luck. and with the right feng shui, we will have a safe condition and have good fortune in our life.
4. Talent : Someone people born to sing, some born to act. Everyone have the talent and it depend on how individual to discover it and make good use of it
5. Effort - This is the most important one if you don't have the above. Hard work will be success just it take longer time than people who have these all 5 elements.
I just believe in luck is the key factor to be successful in life because you might have the right feng shui and talent and u been working so hard for everything, but the luck is not with you. You just gonna be normal for the whole life. I think my luck gonna be finished soon because I keep knowing some great people and Mr. Perfect. I think I never tell anyone, this Mr. Perfect or Mr. C is the most perfect guy I ever met. the everything about Mr. C is perfect and I think is the only person I know that are so perfect. But no need to ask me who are Mr. C. I just not gonna tell. :)

I believe that with this three thing in my life. I'm gonna be a good person. Of cos I still practice normal morale standard and won't do anything that I feel is wrong to do so.  people like me without religion also gonna be live very good and people who have religion do hold on to the religion because it do helped certain people to passed through their hard time in life. Just life is not perfect and everyone got hard time, just do your part and life will get better if you believe it will be.

p/s: I don't eat banana.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

10 Most Memorable Moment of 2011

1. This year continue to join my marathon. I think this year completed a few. and i think next year I should start challenge 21km since I joined 10km for last 3 years. But still gonna run while I can. Life is short, just do what you feel like doing.

2. Went to Hong Kong for the first time in my life. It also the my first travel by airplane and very excited.

3. Then I went to Taiwan. 

4. And Singapore again.

5.Then I Become a diploma holder and graduated from TARC.

6. Went Langkawi for the graduation trip with my classmates. Miss them a lot

7. I finally turned 21 years old this year

8. And I get my lover of my life time - Derek

9. I get my job after the graduation. And i love my current job. Love about everything of it. 

10. I joined gym and I am addicted to those cardio class. 

Additional : This year get to know lot of great people like Andrew, Ming King, Gene, Alvin Loh, Victor,Vincent and lot more. Thanks guys for making 2011 so memorable and such a great year. I love you guys. Truly loving you guys. :)


Let's hope 2012 is a better and Happy new year everyone. Have a great new year courtdown and let's set some resolution for 2012 in next post. Enjoy the long weekend again :)


Ryan L
The Little Lion

Christmas Eve

I'm gonna spend my Christmas eve alone and sleep. Not gonna join any party, club, dinner or etc. Just want to have some time to give myself a break.

Wishing everyone have a blessing Christmas and Happy Holiday.

Merry Christmas :)

Sincerely 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Delete

I wish life can be like computer. When we dont need certain thing we just delete it. When we did something wrong, we just edit it. When we need something new, we just create it.

I wish I can delete everything, and everything

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Phone and Books

15 days more 2011 gonna finish and I noticed that in my list of to do list still got a few not yet completed. But I think I should be feel happy for I completed most of the thing I wanted to do when I set the list during early of the year. Gonna just wait for one more week to see I can finish it or not and reveal my list on the last post of the year and now is time to think new resolution for year 2012.

Actually I already got a few in my mind and don’t mind to write it now. First is to get an Iphone 4s next time. Yes, I’m gonna get one next year. Many people asked me why Iphone? I just simply love the phone, the name and everything about it. And it gonna be a small present for myself for starting my long and dull working life. But I need to wait at least April for certain reason. But if Iphone 5 gonna launch at October or November, I don’t mind to wait again. In the end, I keep waiting and get nothing. Should I just get Iphone 4s first then only change when 5 is launch. I still got lot of time to think and gonna make wise decision.

I love getting present for myself because since I was just a little kid, I seldom receive present even for birthday, or any other big day. Till today, I still no present to receive. Like this year birthday, 21 years I only get a gold key from my parents, a shirt from my classmates and Taiwan trip with someone. And I get myself a Gucci wallet during the trip to celebrate I am finally 21 years and my wishes came true because I told myself when I was 18 years old, I want a Gucci wallet when I’m 21 years old and I did it. But the wallet I just kept at home and only used it for two times. I gonna use it only if with important people or friends. Otherwise I just use my AX wallet till it tear into two part. Since I get Gucci this year and Iphone for next year, the next target will be a pair of new Prada leather shoes. I’m not those who crazy about branded item for I think fashion is not about the brand. It is all about how you wear it. I do wear Bugis street shorts or free t shirt from friends, if you look good in it, the brand already doesn’t matter. If you are look bad in it, LV, Prada also can’t make you look good. And one year one luxury item is not too over I guess. I still very young and should just save up to get myself a car and house in the future. So not gonna spend too much money on those luxury item. Just one in a year.

And I gonna spend RM50-100 to get a book every two months and will make sure I finish the book in two months. I love reading. A lot . I do enjoy reading especially books. I love the touch of the physical with the book. Not like I don’t like to read article from internet but the feeling is different, I am kinda old-fashion guy and book is my thing. But I still read blog. It becomes my daily routine to check up certain blog like Calvin, Andrew and others’ blog. I enjoy reading book and blog. And I gonna start this next month when I finish my Steve Jobs and Marley and Me. I not even read a page of Steve Jobs as the book already bought for 1 month plus already. I love people who read and people who read is just so sexy.

So another week is Christmas time, I hope everyone have plan for the Christmas to gather with family or friends. I love the spirit of Christmas where everyone gather together and talk about everything. Hope I will have a plan for this year. Any invitation for me? I guess I just gonna wait for it.

That’s why for now. Thanks . Gonna write more when I free at weekend.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Just Work

Honestly speaking, I do got ask myself: Do I love my job? My answer is: why not? This is a easy job that require no travel, not much critical thinking, just need some problem solving skill and technical knowledge about company law and regulation. The job involves no calculation, just paperwork and paperwork. My boss said I am an introvert people. I just gonna sit there quietly and finish all my work by myself. That’s true because I don’t like people help me but I don’t mind helping people around. And I just no like to talk when I busy with something.

And what I love about my office is, everyone ciao on time. Hardly got people stay back to OT or just wondering around the office. The main entrance will be locked on time or most late is 15 min after the working hours. I think it is because of my office cannot browse any website from the internet like Facebook, Twitter, blog and not even Google. So there’s nothing to do here after finish work and you got no reason to stay back at the office. That’s good because it encourage people to get a life. Work is not your life. Work is just part of the life. Someone people tend to make work as their whole life and they just live for work. In here, work is just work. You still need to get a life after the working hours. And I just love to ciao on time so I will make sure I get all my thing done before 5pm. But there’s always a last minutes urgent case to handle, I just hate those client so much. Make me need to stay back. However it only happen once awhile so Is okay for me .

There’s one problem I been faced for long time. I tend to feel sleepy from 8am to 10am. In between this hours, I will feel very very sleepy and can’t focus with my work. And I no like to drink coffee also. So I have been finding some solution to overcome it because after 10am, I will be okay and more energetic during the evening time. I noticed that it will be better if I stand up so I just gonna try it for one week and see how it go. All because of I sitting facing my manager room and she can see what I am doing. So sometime is hard to press my phone. But still gonna find chance to check it once awhile.

I think this few day post is all about the work so I think the next post I should write about other thing. Till I figure out what to update, I gonna just update whatever happened daily. But I miss my study life, miss my friends and miss everything now.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Dead.

From this moment, I will not blog, post.any update on Facebook,Twitter, reply any whatsapp, call, msg or other way of communications. You can treat me as a dead man. I'll get back when I feel better. Thanks. Ryan L The Little Lion