Some good, Some bad

There are some good, some bad in our life. This week I experienced one of the worst week ever, but in the same time, god do love me. Although I do not believe in any specific god, but thanks for still loving me. There are some good thing happen to me too.

First I lost my shoes. YES,AGAIN! I really really upset with myself, how come I will lost my shoes. The shoes just won't walk by itself. Last time is my Tiger, this time is the Adidas from HK. I am really really angry of myself. I not even want to look at myself. Just need some time to understand why I am so stupid.

Second, I just keep make mistake this week. Not even want to talk about the mistake I made. Just let it be. I'm just helpless and hopeless. No need to say anything to make me feel better. I just need some time to cool myself down and I think gym is not bad, plus my body is getting much better shape.I think do got some different after going gym.

Third, here come something better, I get a better job offer and gonna just resign tomorrow i guess. This job offer is bit weird, they provide gym allowance, which mean my gym fees only need to pay half by myself. That's something new and fresh for me. But it located at DJ. But I guess still okay la, LRT and bus can reach there, just need to wake up early a bit. I think it will worth it. Plus I love PJ more cos everyone is speaking English which I think is more professional. I know with this job, I might get to somewhere I wanted to be but  all depend.

Fourth, This weekend is my convocation. And i guess none of my friend are coming. IS okay. I take whatever it gonna be. Although bit disappointing but all is in expectation. Let's just not expect anything and be happy on that day. Gonna see some of friends that long time no see. I miss them la.. Miss the time we all fool around, play around, burn midnight oil just for the exam, joke about each other, let them to tease me about everything. I really miss my study time. So I decided I'm gonna study again in future. But perhaps just part time study.

Extra one : Tanya Chua and Chris Daughtry got new song.. Both of my idol come out with new song.. I am damn excited and keep repeating their song..... My taste of music might be bit weird but as long I happy then is okay la, cos most of the time, I listen to my ipod. I no need to share with anyone.. Who care about what u put inside your Ipod. Who knows I might put someone moaning voice in it. But that can't be. Unless anyone want to be my model.

Last one, the photo from taiwan still editing and filtering .. Sorry for the late, I really no mood to do it. Perhaps I just upload it only la.... Lazy already. Just ignore me okay? I know there wont be anyone but still, ignore me please

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Taiwan Part 1

 Today just lazy to write about anything.. so just post some photo from Taiwan... Next post gonna write some experiences for me at Taiwan. Just gonna head to bed now ..at 9.30pm.... Yesterday just rushed back from singapore and today happened something really bad and make my mood very very down. No one know cos I never tell anyone, or post it to my twitter or facebook. I just gonna face it myself.

Will tell my Taiwan story next post.. Do wait for it ya. :)

Ryan L
The Little Lion

I'm Back

I'm back. Before I write anything, just want to wish myself happy belated birthday. 21 years old now. I am official 21 and I have a dream. And I want to live the fullest of my life.

Sorry for the absent for many days. I was at Taiwan and yea the following few post gonna be all about my taiwan trip. So now just a quick recap of what happened when I was not here.

I went to Taiwan, Celebrated my 21st years old birthday, drive a motor vehicle on the road for the first time in my life. Went to a gay pride parade.

So I'm just gonna filter the photo taken from Taiwan and post it in the next post.

And thanks everyone for wished me happy birthday. From Facebook, Twitter, Whatsapp, SMS or even my blog ( Thanks Calvin). I appreciated it. Every wishes mean something to me, A million thank you to you guys. I love you guys.

With Love
Ryan L
The Little Lion

Rainy Day

Just a song to comfort myself. Thanks Andrew for introduce such great song. And I am listen to this song and Norah Jones also.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Birthday Celebration 1 and 2

Today and Yesterday was a busy one. Had my first and second birthday celebration with my classmates. Both my secondary and college buddy. The first one is just a simple steamboat session with my college buddy at home. And thanks for the present and OverTime. I think I was kinda drunk because I love free beer and I don't mind drink much when there got free alcohol.

The Second one is went to Skytrex, Shah Alam. It was the usual October gathering for us. Although this year only 5 people included me joined but we had fun even without others. Just let them be. As time passed by,we get to know who are our real friend. The Skytrex was challenging but for the ex scout like us, that's not a big problem. The only problem was we are really bad luck, it rain during middle of the adventure, and we been forced to stop and wait for the rain to stop. and we get all wet due to the rain. Then we waited around half an hour rain only stop. But in the end we just finished all the station and no one is hurt. I just glad that they are love my planning because previous year we just had dinner but this year I want to do something special so I suggested this place to them and I just happy for they love it too.  After that we went to SS3 for the kopitiam style western food. I think the food is not bad. It was the first time I was there. That's all for my busy weekend.

That's all for now. Let's see got anyone still want to have dinner with me for my birthday or not. Just hope this year birthday I no need to plan it myself again.. Is a bit tired.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Conflict

When you with a group of friends, conflict will always be there. No matter how good between you and your friends, you just can't avoid the conflict. It just the matter of time where the conflict will arise. What do a friend mean to you? You can have lot of friends, but you might just don't have a true friend.

I seriously hate those typical chinese educated child. By saying this, I not stereotype or discriminate because I am chinese educated too, but serious, there are someone who really pissed me off last weekend. He never like me, we never able to see eye on eye on each other. Is okay for you to not like me, but do you have to go around and say something bad about me? He is just those typical old fashion chinese boy who cannot accept changes, criticism on everything, talk very very loud,  not able to communicate well with others, narrow minded, or perhaps I should simplified that into two words - Ah Beng.

Everytime when i organize a gathering or meet up, I don't mind invite him because he still one of the gang but this time he is bit over. Don't want to go too detail about that but it just over my limit. I proudly to say I am a Mr. Nice and I not usually easy to get angry but this time I just cannot take it anymore. This time October gathering I decided not to see him again. Just gonna invite my best friend only. But if he want to come, I will still welcome him.

This post just nothing la.. Not gonna spoil my October mood because of him. I don't mind people no time for me, at least a call or message will make me very happy. Not gonna make any plan for the big day but just want to dinner with some friend. Hopefully this small wishes will come true. I want nothing but the best for my family and my friends.

That's all for today. And I kinda happy to see some comment in my previous post. Thanks guys. I appreciate it.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Someone Like Me

Hi, My name is Ryan. Do you know me? Just want to write something about myself today. First of all, I do not take this as a blog, because this is just a place where I can write whatever I want. I not really my blog got no reader because this is just my life, I guess no one is interested with my life. But I also know that there are few people will read it, thanks guys. and I gonna show you why there are no one like me.

 I'm short and shy. But there are no connection between short and shy.Just being random all the time. I don't mind people forget me, but I do mind people called my name wrong. I would correct anyone even my lecturer or superior when someone called me something else.I just simply don't like my name be called wrongly. Please do not ask what's my chinese name if you have no intention to remember it. I will be unhappy cos is bit rude for forgetting what people told you.

I love my friends. I do not need lot of friend around me. Just a few is good enough. I not good in talking, but I'll try my best to jump into the conversation. I love good music, movie and book. I listen to any music that touched my heart, from Chris Daughtry to Adele to Coldplay to Tanya Chua, I just love any nice music. And I just love to watch movie. Ask me go for a movie, I will be your best movie  buddy. Life is meaningless without music and movie. Just like having sex without kissing, I seriously can't accept that. But sex are overrated. For me, the talk after sex is what make me motivated. Opps.. gone too far for that, come back to the topic.

I love to run. Run is the only sport I good at. Since I am short, basketball is so far away from me. And I just scare of water sometime. So running is the best and easiest sport for me. I love sunset more than sunrise. Because I simply too lazy to get up early to see the sunrise. But I believe that everything eventually will come to an ending point. Even love, there will be an ending point. Just depend on when you will reach that point. Some love manage to last till the death, but some only few years, few months, few days, or few hours. That's just the nature of human, we always believe there's a better one in the future. But when we lost it, we only know that the best already been here and now is gone.

I love when I received someone call. My phone seldom will ring. Not even message. So when someone messaged me or called me, I will feel happy for the rest of the day. Last week there are three person called me. One is Hui Hock who called me because he read my whatsapp about Derek. Then the second one is Andrew also called me because of Derek,That's the surprise one. I never tot he will call me.  The third one is Ryan.This one more surprise. I was tot he called the wrong people because we never meet before, we seldom talk also. He called me and we had a long conversation because we are talking about our dog. I think I owe Derek a thank you because of him, I only get call from my friends. Believe it or not, I really appreciated those call and thanks guys for calling me.

I can sleep at anytime, anywhere and any public transport. I guess that trained since I was just a kid. I can sleep at car, bus, train, plane, lorry, ferry and name the whatever transportation. I can sleep at anywhere. I don't have sleeping problem unless when the time I think too much. Sometime I worry too much, I know is just too silly to think about someone that not even think about you.

I love small surprise. Still remember someone kissed me out of sudden during driving, That's a surprise cause i never expected that but I love it. I smiled and I feel happy and sweet. That just a memory that will always in my mind. Or someone hugged me and tell me everything gonna be okay and you are doing just good.

I am a blur person. I always need to find my keys, phone, wallet, or other stuff. And I always forget where I put those stuff. I just cannot remember it. And my sense of direction is very bad. I don't know how to differentiate right or left. I am a good secret keeper because I will forget the thing people told me if it is not important. People tell me secret because i will forget it the next day. I just don't like to gossip about people and I love to put more attention toward myself more than care about what others did.

I love photography. Not just viewing it, but also shooting it. I still learning and I hope I will be good in one day. Photo never lie (unless those portrait, photoshoped too much). There a story behind each photo, ( not the camwhore pic) and the story is depend on the viewer to interpret it. IT might be a sad story or a happy story in the same photo. And I want to be the one who write the story someday.

Everyone have different perspective about life. That's why we are breathing and living. We want to know what gonna happen next. Who don't want to be good looking, born in rich family, spoiled every moment of your life but that's only gonna happen in a few and you might not be the lucky one. But you should be grateful for who you are. You're amazing just the way you are.

Tell me, where do you find someone like me? Someone that are not good looking, not smart, not good in talking, simply not good in anything. But I still love myself no matter what others think about me cos this is my life and I living for myself.

Gonna write more next time. And I love people giving me feedback about my post. It make me feel like there are actually someone reading it. But if there are no reader, I still will continue to write it. Birthday is coming soon. Let's see anyone remember it

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Someone Like You

You walked by and never noticed me. I know,I really know. I am nothing to you now.  I think You already forget me. Is okay, I told myself everything gonna be okay but i guess not. The scene of you and me, flashed back like the old movie, black and white image, I try to remember the dialogue between the scene but I can't. The memory is fading, I no longer remember what you said to me, i no longer remember what you said when you holding my hand, i not remember why we hugged. I just do not remember it. But I still remember your the way you smell, I remember your smile to me when I did something stupid, and I remember the way you wish me good night. I know is sad that the one who stand next to you is other people now, but I guess that is the fate.

Adele said : Nevermind I'll find someone like you. But I wish I do not need to find it because you are the one and only I need. There will be no one as good as you, no one know me like you. Perhaps I should just let you go, and wipe off the moment we had. Let's everything go and not even the memory. How I wish I can delete you just like delete a file. Delete you and never restore back. Just like you never exist in my life.

The day I meet you I know you're the one. I love the way you talk, you always make me smile, I love the way you walk, you always lead the way. I love the way you make the decision and I no need to worry about anything. I remember the first time you hold my hand, and tell me everything gonna be fine. I remember the first time we kissed and you tell me you will never let go my hand. I promised you I won't cry, but i'm sorry i broke our promise. That's just too much for me.

I think I'm born to love you. and I really love you. I wish nothing but the best for you, so I let you go, even I love you. Who really truly wish your ex happy? I think not me. But everything gonna be fine. I must believe that everything gonna be fine.

p/s: that's not my story.  just not belong to me anymore.
p/s 2 : And This really not my story

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Project Runaway 6 : Graduation Trip @ LangKawi 3

The last part of my langkawi trip update... For the rest of the photo.. kindly visit my facebook page. 

This is one of the fun part of the day. They hold me up and throw me down. The first try is damn pain because my butt hit the bottom of the sea. Then we walk further to deeper sea. And it feel great to dropped from this high. I love this kind of extreme act. 

Ready to put me up

I already up

let's take a photo before i'm down

here we go

And they just throw me like that ... so fun 

Friendship Forever

Although the trip ended, but our friendship will remain the same 

and Happy Malaysia Day and Happy holiday 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Project Runaway 6 : Graduation Trip @ LangKawi 2

The second part of the Langkawi trip. This is an island where there are a legend about the lake. If you drink the water of the lake, you shall be pregnant.  Dont know is true or not but we had fun for swimming there. And it is 10meter deep and our feet cant touch the ground at all. kinda scary for me. 

The next is the beach part. Langkawi have the best beach in Malaysia. And the weather is great. I love sunny weather plus nice view of sea and beach.

That's all for this post. Next update is the last update of the trip. by the way, we had our last gathering yesterday and it was fun. Thanks guys for everything.

Ryan L
The Little Lion