One day

I always believe there’s a moment in life, where we worked for so hard every day, and finally we get tired and we will start to wonder why I am doing this. I think this is an important stage of life. Where we really tired of everything and everyone, some people choose the hang on there, some people choose to leave, some people just pretend nothing is happened, pick up the exhausted heart and mind and continue to do what they should do. I think I would choose the second opinion which is runaway from everything. Perhaps I will disappear 3 to 6 months. And no one will even notice that I not around anymore.

I would travel around and see thing and people. Meet different kind of people, learn different kind of language. People should do that. We can commit ourself into workplace maybe for few years, but not forever.

Just give me some time, I will do it one day. Yeah, one day

Ryan L
The Little Lion

October

October, my favorite month.

The weather are just nice, 

the wind is just fine,

People look more petty and handsome,

Doggie look more cute,

Food taste better,

Working seem like not so boring,

Assignment feel like very easy,

It make me feel like miracle can be happened anytime

I do not make a wish, I just hope it will be a good month. 

October simply feel good.

Hopefully it really will be a good month 

Cheer 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Jom Botak

Jom Botak is a campaign by MAKNA to create awareness of cancer and what are the feeling of the cancer patient bald for undergo chemotherapy.

please visit : http://jombotak.makna.my/ for more info.

 Before and After 

Happy Derek and Botak me 

Although is not something big, but i do hope people will care more about the cancer patient and understand what they are going though. 

The Little Lion

Ryan L

Hello & Goodbye

Life is a series of hellos and goodbye. People come and people go. Some people stay, some people left, some people come and stay for a short period but yet it is the most amazing moments. The important is not the time frame, but is the moment shared together. 

Some people hurt you, some people love you, some people make you laugh, some people make you sad, the important not what they did, it is the emotion and memory they gave it you. Quote from my friend MK: Happiness isn't something you experience; it's something you remember.

In the end, you will be thankful to everyone that ever appear in your life. Because of them, it shaped what you are today. Life is about people you meet and the things you create with them. Be nice and a smile won’t harm you or anyone. 

You can feel sad, but don’t sad for too long. You deserve to be happy. You can cry out, but remember to be strong after the tearsdrop, make it every drop worth. Promise to take good care yourself, never let anyone take control of your life.                      

Say hello to the new friend and welcome them warmly, say goodbye to old friend or the people who want to leave and wish them all the best. A hug better than any word to express the feeling. Hug is free, so do not hesitate to give it to people who need it.

  You Bite Me, I Bite You, That's called Love Bite

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Second Half

First half of the year is gone. Do you resolve any resolution that you set on the beginning of the year?

My first half of 2012 was great for me. I get to know some great people, started my degree, working life is stress but still manageable, went to Bangkok, and now starting to plan to get a car for myself. Always wanted to get myself a car but still taking myself some time to consider that am I able to commit myself into such big commitment in such age and such pay? I guess I still need some time to think about it.

Life should not be so easy, that’s what I am telling myself so easy. We tend to be lazy if life gets easy. I think the second half of the year gonna be very busy as assignment and workload getting more and more. No complaint but just hope to get a short break for myself.

Let’s hope better for the rest of the year 2012.

And finally talked to the Famous Calvin. Good start of the second half year i guess 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Unpredictable

Life is a series of unpredictable event that happen together to make us have all kind of feeling. Today morning I was thinking about someone and someone messaged me. Oh gosh, it has been almost one year since the last time I get in touch with him. It was a pleasant surprise to me and it makes my day. It also show that people do remember me.

I met some great people. Some are just hi and bye. Some become friend and some even not remember who I am. But I always consider myself as a very lucky person for get to have such great friends in my life. Although I not those super good looking guy, but I take myself as the normal boy with average look. I like the way i look (okay, not my ears), already accepted the fact that I only can be 165. Met people who have same height as me but still can be great, so it no longer about the height. I love my small eyes.

I don’t mind people don’t know me. Just want to keep myself as low as I can. No need to know everyone, know a few that are good to you and you feel comfortable with them is good enough.

And once again, I proved myself is not bad in presenting. Compliment from the lecturer saying that I’m the best presenter of the class because I memorize the fact, I do not read from the slide, and I explained everything clearly and example provided. But because of this presentation no mark is given, actually I just simply do. I not even practice for it. And I did last minutes preparation by thinking what to say and the example during others presentation. But I still feel happy for that. The only reason I write this in my blog is because this is the only place I can show off as not many people will read it and I don’t plan to tell everyone that. But it just the feeling want writing it out, if not facebook, not twitter then just left my blog. Gonna do some preparation for the next presentation as it is part of the assignment. Not every time is so lucky for me.

Life is unpredictable. Just take everyday like your last day you gonna live in this world. Do the thing you like and want. That’s all I want to say. 

Dear Calvin : R.I.P Poco :(  Just be strong. hugs

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Dark Side

Life is like a silent movie. Only you, yourself know the dialogue of your heart. It is not hard to get to know someone but it is hard to guess someone’s thinking. Mind is a very scary yet powerful thing, it creates thought and thought evolve into idea. Idea transform into action and the action lead to success or failure. I used to like to watch silent movie. I like to guess what they actually saying in the movie. Imagination is borderless; it can be higher than any sky, deeper than any sea.

I am the person who very enjoy of the silent moment. I’m alone but not lonely. I wish to travel to the place that away from the big city and people and get closer with the nature. Should plan one day off to mount kinabalu and conquer the big guy, but now just need to focus more on my study and work. I need to balance my life. Lately just too tired and can’t focus in work or class. Perhaps I am pushing myself too hard.

Love this song very much lately :-

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

5 more days to SCMKL. Cant wait for that

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Silent

Silence is the strongest word uttered when needed having the most deadend effect the harshest of words
~Ryan LeRoux

Beautiful Life

Appreciate Life
Enjoy every moment
Love your family, friends, enemy and/or your dog,cat,hamster..
Have faith in something such as God or anything that make u feel calm and peace.
You never know you will need to hold on something in one day
 Be nice to everyone
Always smile and say good words
Life is hash but at least you are breathing and alive so nothing in this life in better that that
Nothing is impossible, you just need to take the first step
Trying is no harm, keep try until you success
Open your mind and heart to accept something new or special
Do not discriminate, no one is perfect
If can, travel often. Getting lost will help you find yourself.
Mediation for 10 minutes a day. It help to balance your life.
Spend another 10 to 30 minutes to read everyday. Do not stop reading.

Life is beautiful, and always love yourself.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Food

My friend lately is complaining to me that I am too picky for food. But that is not true. I always being asked this question : You eat to live or live to eat? Without doubt, my answer is eat to live. Actually I not really like to eat, if can, I dont want to eat. I just eat to survive, so actually I don't mind the food is nice or not nice, as long is acceptable then i am okay with it. But here come the problem, my acceptable level is kinda weird which people thought i am very picky and choosy. But I got my own reason for that.

First of all, I don't eat lamb and beef as my family don't eat beef and lamb taste gamey. I will vomit if I take lamb. The smell and taste of lamb is unacceptable for me. Still remember the first time i tried a lamb dishes and I vomited all out in 10 minutes. After since that I dare not to eat any lamb anymore. and I will dare not to try those deer, rabbit meat also.

Secondly, I don't eat funny part of animal such as leg. I can't accept chicken leg, pork leg, duck leg or any kind of leg. and also any kind of organ such as heart, stomach, intestine. So if i go pak kut teh with my friends, i will try to stop them from adding those part inside but each time failed. They all really happy to see i'm not eating those part because they can eat more. Sometime I just don't understand why people like to eat that kind of thing. But I won't ask them not to eat when with me, I can just choose the part I will eat.

Third, is the kind of vegetable that got strong smell such as bell pepper, petai, egg plant and a few more. In short, I just no likely anything with funny smell and funny texture. And I love sweet thing. Dessert lover. can I have dessert for my breakfast, lunch and dinner?

Yea, that's why. See, I am not picky. I just dont eat weird stuff. So next time eat with me, no need to worry so much, cos I can find anything to eat in the menu, except you want to pre-oder for me, but no one do that for me so is okay.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

Sad Story

Yesterday, I went out with a friend that he told me a sad story. In one usual day, he met a friend at one of the neighborhood nearby his house and he saw a moving box in that person. Out of curious he asked that person what’s that in the dog and that person told him in that is a dog and he plan to throw it away. My friend was shocked when that person say that and with no emotion and my friend asked him why. He answer was : I am so sick of taking the dog and it was too naughty and troublesome to raise dog. It no longer fun to having a dog like the expectation. What kind of people will say this kind of thing? My friend take over the dog from that person and take back to his house and the sad thing is the dog should be in pairs but my friend only manage to save the female because the male one that person put it in somewhere far few day back and when my friend try to locate it, that male dog cant be found.  And the female dog body is all with wound and scar. My friend believes that person had been abusing the dog also. The good thing is my friend manages to get the dog from that person and now she is in my friend house.

I do not get the point here. Dog is not a toy. You cannot have a pet just for fun and when you feel bored of it and you just throw it away just like that. That’s the problem of nowadays people, people never think of consequence. Do they ever think about all the responsibility before getting a pet? I think they just think it is cute and they must have it and when they have it they  start to feel tired of taking care it and eventually just throw that into somewhere. It not suppose to be like that, animal also have feeling like we do, if you not happy, you can release your anger in many ways, why abuse your pet by hitting them or torture them? This society is sick. As a dog owner, I always advise people when you plan to get a dog, you must think about a few things:

1. Do you have the time to take care the dog, bath the dog, feed the dog?

2. Will you willing to sacrifice some of your time to play with the dog or bring it out for walk?

3. Can you make sure that you will be with your dog whenever he need you?

4. Do you really can take up the responsibility and have the patient to train and teach the dog?

5. Will you love your dog just like love your friend because you got lot of friends and the dog only got you as their friend.

I really hope people get the pets just because it seem cool and fun to have one as everyone is having one and expect the pet having good behavior without any training. Think before you buy and if can, don’t buy, adopt one from SPCA or PAWS. Help the homeless animal and it will love you more than anyone do.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Busy Life

I been so busy lately. Lot of good thing and bad thing happened for the last few months. The worst is I dropped my laptop and now it need to admit to hospital No pc from now to next few weeks. And then life is been so busy after since I started my class. Now my life is just work and study. I get up from my bed, go to work, then off work and then go class, finish my class and if not so tired will hit the gym for one hour but if very tired will just back home and sleep and the next day is the same thing again. Now I’m totally lifeless and hard to catch up with my friends also.

This kind of life should be last for at least 2 years plus I think. And I got lot of assignment to do and yet I my laptop is still dying there. It gonna be a struggle semester for me, but just gonna try to do my best and get a good grade for my degree.

I am so sorry for long time never update my blog. I not even got time to update my twitter and facebook. Less time for me to whatsapp also. Friends is complaining about me getting too busy and no time for them. I think is time for me to do some time management between work, study and friends. Just gonna make some call within this few week and catch up with friends.

And after started my degree, it also mean no more running around for me. I just gonna stop it for 2 years and fully focus on my study.(bye bye for Vietnam, siam reap and Bali) But I still will go for the Company trip cos it is free and I can skip work for few days. Hopefully no coursework to rush for that period. However, during the weekend I should think of have a short getaway in the country to continue my Project Runaway such as Penang as the last time I was there and I’m just 3 years old. Totally not remember anything about Penang.

And I just need to get drunk at least one time. Not typical reason but just feel like doing it. 

That’s all for now. Hopefully my lappy recover soon and want to play Diablo 3 and watch my Japanese Anime. Naruto story is getting more excited and I cant wait it... Ish. That's Life.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Tired of

Sometime I just tired. Tired of people looking down on me, tired of people telling me what to do for my life, tired of everyone just the same. Sometime I will just wish my life is different. It still my dream to start my life at a new place where no one know me,  and i can do whatever i want, say whatever i feel like to say.

Out of suddenly. I miss Charming, Cindy and Leo. Hope you guys will miss me sometime. I just tired. When I tired, I will just think of them and it make me happy.  And i will be fine. I just need someone call me up and tell me you gonna be fine. Just hang on there but guess I dont have such friend yet. I won't give up my life, just gonna take a break and give myself some time out.

And I never left, I still reading blog, just lazy to update mine. Due to lot of thing happened to me and I just don't want to talk about it. And i'm glad that people still care about my blog. Thanks guys.

Do not plan to write long but just want to say thank you and sorry.

Oh ya, I registered myself as a student and I'm gonna be a degree student and will complete my degree in two years.

p/s: Charming, Cindy and Leo is my hamster. I like to name my pets with the name I like. Charming and Cindy is because of Cinderella and Leo is watched too much of Charmed.

Ryan L
The Little Lion

10 Things Your Dog Would Tell You

10 Things Your Dog Would Tell You.... 
1. My life is likely to last 10 to 15 years. Any separation from you will be painful: remember that before you get me. 
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me. 
3. Place your trust in me- it is crucial to my well being.
4. Do not be angry at me for long, and do not lock me up as punishment.
5. You have your work, your entertainment,and your friends. I only have you.
6. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understands your words, I understand your voice when it is speaking to me.
7. Be aware that how ever you treat me, I will never forget.
8. Remember before you hit me that I have teeth that could easily hurt you, but I choose not to bite you because I love you.
9. Before you scold me for being uncooperative,obstinate,or lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I might not be getting the right food, or I have been out too long, or my heart is getting to old and weak.
10. Take care of me when I get old; you too will grow old. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say: "I cannot bear to watch" or "Let it happen in my absence." Everything is easier for me if you are there, even my death.
Remember that I love you.

Happy Chinese New Year

I been away for too long and now I am back. Like serious, I missed out lot of thing during this period. The reason I been missng is because I working for the last 9 days. Included the first and second days of Chinese New Year. So yea, here I am now. Back to my normal life. And I guess that’s so much to update and I not even know where to start with.

Let’s just start with what had I do for the past 9 days. A friend of mine asked me want to join him to work as tour guide or not and without thinking much I just promised him and attended a short and and obtain the temporary licenese for 15 days. So I been worked as a part time tour guide during this CNY period. And for someone who don’t like to talk like me, it was a huge challege for me. Because this job require lot of talking and it need to introduce your country to the tourist. So this is one of the hardest part time job ever. I think I did a not bad job because my tourist like me very much and I want to thank them for giving me an unforgettable CNY eve. I think it is a good experience and I learned a lot from this job. At least I improved my communication skill and I know I need to talk more and I can do that if I want. I been travel from JB to Melacca to Port Dickson to Genting to KL. But no photo taken because I need to guide them. So yea, for one time, I travel without taking any photo. And I get to learn lot of thing of this tourism industry. And I know what to do or what not to do when I travel next time with a tour guide.

And the best part is I earned a bit of pocket money for the 9 days of non stop working. ( actually is 8.5 days). I think I just need to save a bit more to get the down payment of my own car. Actually I still thinking and calculating what car should I get for myself but I think no rushing because I just started my job and I think for this moment just save some money first before making any big plan. But I do hope to get a car for myself before the year end or the beginning of next year. I am considering between the cheapest Proton or slightly expensive Toyota. With my current salary, if I get Toyota, the commitment will be too high. But living in KL without a car is just so inconvenience. Because everywhere is so far and actually I don’t like to ask people to fetch although I know some of them won’t mind but I just no like it. So getting a car is the plan and now the question is should I save longer for a better car or should get the cheapest car first and change it in future. Hmm… Let’s the time and money I have decide.

Although I worked for the past 8.5 days, I manage to get 0.5 days to gather with some friends. And I had a great time hanging out with them. This is what we called life. You need a group of friend that love the same thing with you and you feel comfortable to hang out with. I been missed lot of times for the gathering and this time finally I get to join. I was kinda happy because I do need a break after working for so many days.

And this is a special thanks to Calvin for nominated me in his GABLO. Actually fame is nothing but it feels good when you see people voted for you. And I would like to say Thank you to Calvin and my reader. I don’t have any expectation so even one vote it make me feel happy for the whole day. And yea, sometime we just need not to care about what other people said, some  might just jealous of what you having. And it really sad that some people are so childish and immature. Although I never meet Calvin before but I can feel he’s a good person and I will be on his side for this matter. Just do what you feel is right and there’s always someone try to pull us down when you are doing something good. It just because you at the position where they never will make it and all they call do is just try to pull you down and destroy you. Just be who you are and I just want to say: I’m always a fans of Calvin blog and thanks to him, my blog got few more reader. We always love you Calvin

Last but not least, Chinese New Year everyone. And I had decided to donate all my angpow money to SPCA and PAWS. It all about giving back to the society this year for me and I choose to help the homeless doggie. Ever since I have Derek in my life, it been a good life for me. So I hope to help other doggie. So yea, that’s all for the update and hopefully it wont be long for my next post.

Ryan L

The Little Lion

New Challenge

Life is not that hard if you see it in a positive way. Everyone got their own problem and pressure. As long you know the way to handle it, you will be just fine. 2012 is a brand new year for me, from a student to working adult, I think that’s the biggest change in last year.

And I get my driving license also. And something weird happened yesterday. My boss suddenly ask me go to see him. First I tot I did something wrong or he found out that I always Facebook and read blog during office. But guess I worried too much because what he want to say is totally different from what in my mind. He want to promote me and do some adjustment to my salary. I was kinda shocked at first because I just worked here for one month and still in the process of learning, and I not those very good employee because I left office everyday at 5 sharp and I did some mistake also.And I still got 2 months probation period But don’t know why boss want to pass me a portfolio and want me to in charge of it. Actually I not really like that because I still learning and there are lot of thing I still don’t know. It is not a good news for me but a burden or pressure to me. Just because I’m new in this company and there are lot of thing for me to learn.

I just hope I can do it. As I said before, life is not that hard if you see it in another way. I just gonna take it as a challenge and I gonna win it. Just gonna try my best for it and make it as a motivation to myself.  

And my 2012 resolution got 5 things :

1. Family
2. Career
3. Derek
4. Gym
5. Friends

And I just gonna focus on this 5 thing in this year. For travel part I think let’s see my pocket and my luck. If I can get cheap flight ticket and a good destination, then it will be my October trip. And I need to start to a new plan for my life since everything changed already.

Ryan L

The Little Lion 

Passed

I have a good news and a bad news for the beginning of the 2012. The good news is I finally resolved one of the last year resolution which is get myself a car license. Although is late a bit but yeah, I passed my driving test after three atempt. That’s suppose to be my 21 years old present for myself but is okay. At least that’s the first good news happened in 2012. I’m sure this year gonna be a great year and I truly believe in that.

And the bad news is the road gonna have another bad driving skill driver and I know my driving skill is really bad. I think I won’t drive for this few year until I really ready for it. Even during practice or the test time I was so scare and can’t control it well. And I still cannot see myself driving a car on the road. It just but scary to do so plus kl everywhere also jam. and accident rate in kl is just so high and I don’t want to part of the rate. So I guess I just gonna put that license at home to display only. One of my achiement in life. I know for certain people driving is no big deal but for someone like me who not even know how to ride a bicycle well, I considered myself make a big step in my life. And I do proud of myself.

The next post gonna set some resolution to be resolved in 2012. And hope everyone do have a good start of the year. And Chinese New year is coming soon. I’m gonna work for the whole CNY. And I’m sure everyone is excited about it. I think is time to do some shopping too. 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Belief

I wanted to write this post long time ago. Now finally get the chance to write it. For those who don't as know anything about me, I'm a free thinker. And I do not believe in any religion in this world. People always ask : Do you believe in God? If you deny the existence of God, you will be burn in hell forever. First of all, I never say I do not believe in God. Just I choose not to involve myself into any religion. The reason is very simple, there are just one God and God cannot be defined, cannot be named. They no need our worship nor burn those paper. They are just there, and nothing else we need to do for them.They just wish human to be good and be nice to everyone. Maybe you think this is ridiculous but that's only my thought and it do not harm anyone, and I do not ask any people to quit or stop believe in their religion. Just myself choose not to have it but I still very respect every religion. and I still will join those religion activity to know more about it. Actually I'm very interest in religion because there are two thing gonna change the world and one of it is religion. The other one is culture and art. I always wonder how people live under the strong influence of religion such as people of Tibet, India, Italy or even Turkey or Arab. That's the reason why those places are my must visit destination. To understand more about their religion and culture.

For someone like me that do not have any religion, it is important to have some belief to make sure when I am down or helpless, i got something to hold on to. I got three thing or principal in my life. There are Myself, Money and Luck. I need to believe in myself a lot. I believe that no one will treat you nice, even your closest friend will have the probability to betray you one day. Life is a series of unpredictable and unfortunate event. I have the practice of never talk bad about someone, never angry when someone talked bad about you. It just life. When everyone left you, you just have yourself. So it is important to me to believe in myself. I just cannot give up on myself. and I always appreciated those people who treated me as friends and I will let it be for those who hate me. I know there are a lot of people hate me but guess what, I don't care. Life is like that, no one gonna live forever, and I no need to waste my time to care about those hater, I rather use the time to cherish those people who care for me.

Second is Money. Why money? You surely think i'm very materialistic. I will not deny I love money. If you know me for some period, you will know that I worked lot of part time before like promoter, those Pc fair, matta fair, concert crew, event crew, telemarketing, give flyer, data entry, club waiter, restaurant waiter and lot more.Actually I don't like the work, I just love the paid. I think money is just important to us. Don't ever say money is not important, you will regret for saying that when u got no money at all. There's a reason why all of us work so hard for. I think 99% is because of the money and 1% is fulfill their dream. I came from a consider poor family so I understand that earn lot of money is the main motivation for me to study and work. I think nothing wrong to admit you love money as long you earn it in a right and legal way.

Third is luck. I always believe in luck. In an old chinese saying, there are five element to be successful in life.
1. Fate - It cannot be changed. It already fixed for the moment you was born. We cannot choose our parents. We just have to accept the fate and live it.
2. Luck: - It cannot be changed too. Luck is around us. There are time we are good luck, there are time we are bad luck. We only can wish that bad luck time is short and you have longer period of good luck. Everyone will have bad luck. No need worry or complaint about that.
3. FengShui- This actually proven scientific will help us to improve our luck. and with the right feng shui, we will have a safe condition and have good fortune in our life.
4. Talent : Someone people born to sing, some born to act. Everyone have the talent and it depend on how individual to discover it and make good use of it
5. Effort - This is the most important one if you don't have the above. Hard work will be success just it take longer time than people who have these all 5 elements.
I just believe in luck is the key factor to be successful in life because you might have the right feng shui and talent and u been working so hard for everything, but the luck is not with you. You just gonna be normal for the whole life. I think my luck gonna be finished soon because I keep knowing some great people and Mr. Perfect. I think I never tell anyone, this Mr. Perfect or Mr. C is the most perfect guy I ever met. the everything about Mr. C is perfect and I think is the only person I know that are so perfect. But no need to ask me who are Mr. C. I just not gonna tell. :)

I believe that with this three thing in my life. I'm gonna be a good person. Of cos I still practice normal morale standard and won't do anything that I feel is wrong to do so.  people like me without religion also gonna be live very good and people who have religion do hold on to the religion because it do helped certain people to passed through their hard time in life. Just life is not perfect and everyone got hard time, just do your part and life will get better if you believe it will be.

p/s: I don't eat banana.

Ryan L
The Little Lion