Cherating with Derek

 Went Cherating with my Derek boy. He seem happy and Me also happy. I think we are same type, both of us love beach and sea. And he is more excited than me because his fur friends are all going like Sophie, Jack, Coby and Jamie. He such a happy boy. Love to see he run with freedom and swim inside the sea, make me feel happy

Definitely will visit again. Wait for us Cherating.

Regards,
Ryan L

June

I hope you treat me good. Ms. June

Before I Die

Before I die, I want to :

1. Bungee Jump
2. Experience Free Fall
3. Overcome my Aquaphobia
4. Get a pair of shoes from every big brand
5. Learn how to take good photo
6. see the northern light
7. Learn a new language
8. Write a book and get it printed for my own collection (Perhaps the story between derek and me)
9. Have a good body shape
10.  Learn to play a proper song for violin (which I already started to learn the basic)
11. Left a footstep at the seven wonder
12. Going to watch an Olympic game (Swimming perhaps)
13. Watch a concert (Ya, i still not yet been to a proper concert)
14. Fly First class and business class
15. See real snow and freeze till shaking .
16. Attend my best friend wedding and be a  groomsmen
17. Dream in English

That's all for now. Will continue to add in thing when I figure out new thing I want to do.

Cheer peeps.
Ryan L

It all about Love Song

So it is 520 and everyone is talking about love. So I would just post some love song that I love and I'm sure everyone know each of the song. Some are classic, some are new. some are unforgettable, some are heartbreaking. all of this are my favorite love song of all time

My heart stops when you look at me
Just one touch, now baby I believe
This is real, so take a chance
And don't ever look back, don't ever look back

You gave me faith cos you believed 
Em everything I am
Because you loved me 

You'll always be a part of meI'm a part of you indefinitelyBoy don't you know you can't escape meOoh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Sometimes I run (sometimes)Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you But all I really want is to hold you tight Treat you right, be with you day and night 
Baby it's you.You're the one I love.You're the one I need.You're the only one I see.Come on baby it's you.You're the one that gives your all.You're the one I can always call.When I need you make everything stop.Finally you put my love on top.

Not really sure how to feel about itSomething in the way you moveMakes me feel like I can't live without youIt takes me all the wayI want you to stay..! Stay...I want you to stay, oohh oohh

Boy, we're in a world war, 
Let's go all the way, 
Put your foot to the floor, 
Really walk away, 
Tell me that you need me more and more everyday, 
Never let me go, just stay. 

The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve 
Learning to Love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

So don't you worry your pretty little mindPeople throw rocks at things that shineAnd life makes love look hardThe stakes are high, the water's rough, but this love is ours

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with youThey try to pull me away but they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

Breathe, I know you find it hardBut, baby, breathe, you'll be next to meIt's all you need and I'll take you thereI'll take you higher, higher, higherAll the loversThat have gone beforeThey don't compareTo you
I am now in a world where IHave to hide my heart and what I believe inBut somehow I will show the worldWhat's inside my heart and be loved for who I am
Oooh, and love 
Oh, love 
I'll be that fool 
For you, 
I'm sure 
You know I don't mind 
Oh you know- 
I don't mind 

I have died everydaywaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
Where there is desireThere is gonna be a flameWhere there is a flameSomeone's bound to get burnedBut just because it burnsDoesn't mean you're gonna dieYou gotta get up and try and try and tryYou gotta get up and try and try and tryYou gotta get up and try and try and try
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
When you're goneThe words I need to hear to always get me throughThe day and make it okI miss you
It's hard to feel the rush
To push the dangerous
I'm gonna run right to, to the edge with you
Where we can both fall over in love
Never mind, I'll find someone like youI wish nothing but the best for you, tooDon't forget me, I begged, I remember you saidSometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts insteadSometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

If i missed out any song, just let me know :)

Ryan L

Bali & Mr. 4

Just feel like i should write a post for my Bali trip. It been awhile since I write about my travel story. Basically travel is a great thing, Bali is a great place with great beaches and sea, strong culture and friendly people. But i also paid the highest price among all my trip for Bali. I lost my phone at Bali. Yeah, my beloved phone. People who know me will know how much i love my phone. I do not blame the anyone for lost the phone, it just my own careless attitude. Although it do effect my mood for the rest of the day, but i try my best to hide it and not to effect others. But still, the disappointment can't be hided. It still shown on my face. I need to thank whoever I need for the sunny day for the next day. Because it been raining for two days when i was at Bali, but the day after i lost my phone, the day was sunny and the weather just great. I am grateful for the good weather because raining do really make someone feel emo.

 And i finally get to go beach. I just love beach and sea. Don't know why, each time when i see beach and sea, i feel calm and happy. Although i dont know how to swim, but i love to be inside the sea. it make me feel great and it is fun to see the waves hitting toward you. In Bali, the sea waves is quite big, guess thats the reason why all the surfer love to surf at Bali because of the waves. when u inside the sea, and sit at there, you  actually just like witness a small tsunami hit toward you. I'm not sure anyone do understand what i am talking about but i do love the feeling when the water hit on me. The feeling is great and i think i should learn swimming seriously and overcome my phobia toward deep water. 

Bali also one of the most beautiful island i ever visited. The scenery simply amazing and mind blowing. I would go back again for the beautiful people and place. It such a lovely place. Despite of all the bad thing, I still manage to enjoy my trip with the company of my friends. I enjoyed to travel with them. They make the whole trip so memorable and fun. 

Gonna post up the picture soon as my phone had lost, I dont have any picture for now. Gonna wait my friend to send it to me. 

I shall miss you Mr. 4. Hope you will find a better owner at Bali and I shall remember you always and you make my Bali trip unforgettable. For one last time, thank you for all the time you with me, and bringing me all the memory when you with me. Thank you Mr. 4. I love you.

Ryan L

Changes

Out of sudden, I noticed I changed so much, until I not even notice since when I don’t like thing that I used to like anymore. I always believe that only thing that last forever is diamond, other than that all thing will change including the most obvious one – people. I’m always ordinary. I live an ordinary life. When friends asked me a work to describe myself, the only word I could think of is normal. But actually I think ordinary or average would be a better for myself. Ever since when I was a kid, I not good in everything but I not bad also. I’m just average, teacher know about my existence but never put in extra attention. My result was just average, not good but not bad also. My personality is boring as I am a extremely shy and introvert person. The old friends are making fun of me now when we refresh our memory about the first meet-up. I not even dare to look into the eyes when talking. But guess that changed a lot. Now I have better social skill and thanks to all my friend, they make me feel like I actually is a good guy but I know I’m not. Thank you guys. For me , last time I don’t want to stand out, I don’t want to get known by people. I just want to be myself. But now I’m a totally different person. And I am not high profile. Thank you very much.

But recently, I noticed that’s some changes about all of this. I think average, ordinary and normal no longer is my word. I want something more, something above average, something extraordinary even something abnormal. But changes is not by a days or two. Deep in my heart, I wish to be someone great, a good son to my parents, a good company to my friend, a good lover to my beloved, a good master cum father to my doggie. But don’t know why, there’s always something missing. I don’t know what is it. But just something missing.  But I’m not complaining anything, my parents are in good health, I got a group of good friend that treasure me as their friend and I got a not so understanding but trying to be nice loved one and a super naughty yet super sweet doggie with me. Nothing to complaint. Life is complete so far.

However, life is not perfect, despite having all those wonderful thing in my thing, I still want more. I believe that I can go further for my study. I want to complete my study and continue to another level. And honest speaking I don’t like my job. I believe that one day I can get the job I like. Guess I just have to keep try and try. This remind me one of my favorite song recently – Try by Pink :-

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try, and try, and try
Gotta get up and try, and try, and try
You gotta get up and try, and try, and try

Very motivating and inspiring song.

Guess now just gonna wait time to pass and I actually finished this post in my workstation because I got nothing to do and I can’t read my Silver Linings Playbook. Totally in love with the book and I shall write a review about it when I finish it. (should be another 3 days more)

Ryan L 

Update

Yeah, I’m back again. After so long never update my blog, I think is time to revive it back. It been a interesting life so far ever since the last update. Job is a boring one, tendered my resignation letter but withdrawal back my letter due to too many trip in this year and I need money. I know, money can’t buy happiness but without money I’m surely not happy. In this stage, I would say, money still my main motivation to stay in this job. Although I know there would be better offer out there but I think I will stay back for the bonus on August and spend it for my Korea and Taiwan trip.

I’m quite excited for this year because I’m gonna turn to 23 and it is the best age ever in one man life. Reason? I just love the number 23. But I do think that in this age, I am doing not bad. Not to compare with anyone, I bought my own car, have a decent job. And most important is I get to go around without worrying anything. Plus, Derek is good and healthy. Family and friends are doing great also. Get to know lots of great people, some friend do found their significant others. Do feel happy for them.

I think I need some new direction for my blog and I still taking my time to think what should I blog and how should I blog. So I will just take my time to think and meanwhile this just a short update and I shall back for more update. 

Regards,

Ryan L

One day

I always believe there’s a moment in life, where we worked for so hard every day, and finally we get tired and we will start to wonder why I am doing this. I think this is an important stage of life. Where we really tired of everything and everyone, some people choose the hang on there, some people choose to leave, some people just pretend nothing is happened, pick up the exhausted heart and mind and continue to do what they should do. I think I would choose the second opinion which is runaway from everything. Perhaps I will disappear 3 to 6 months. And no one will even notice that I not around anymore.

I would travel around and see thing and people. Meet different kind of people, learn different kind of language. People should do that. We can commit ourself into workplace maybe for few years, but not forever.

Just give me some time, I will do it one day. Yeah, one day

Ryan L
The Little Lion

October

October, my favorite month.

The weather are just nice, 

the wind is just fine,

People look more petty and handsome,

Doggie look more cute,

Food taste better,

Working seem like not so boring,

Assignment feel like very easy,

It make me feel like miracle can be happened anytime

I do not make a wish, I just hope it will be a good month. 

October simply feel good.

Hopefully it really will be a good month 

Cheer 

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Jom Botak

Jom Botak is a campaign by MAKNA to create awareness of cancer and what are the feeling of the cancer patient bald for undergo chemotherapy.

please visit : http://jombotak.makna.my/ for more info.

 Before and After 

Happy Derek and Botak me 

Although is not something big, but i do hope people will care more about the cancer patient and understand what they are going though. 

The Little Lion

Ryan L

Hello & Goodbye

Life is a series of hellos and goodbye. People come and people go. Some people stay, some people left, some people come and stay for a short period but yet it is the most amazing moments. The important is not the time frame, but is the moment shared together. 

Some people hurt you, some people love you, some people make you laugh, some people make you sad, the important not what they did, it is the emotion and memory they gave it you. Quote from my friend MK: Happiness isn't something you experience; it's something you remember.

In the end, you will be thankful to everyone that ever appear in your life. Because of them, it shaped what you are today. Life is about people you meet and the things you create with them. Be nice and a smile won’t harm you or anyone. 

You can feel sad, but don’t sad for too long. You deserve to be happy. You can cry out, but remember to be strong after the tearsdrop, make it every drop worth. Promise to take good care yourself, never let anyone take control of your life.                      

Say hello to the new friend and welcome them warmly, say goodbye to old friend or the people who want to leave and wish them all the best. A hug better than any word to express the feeling. Hug is free, so do not hesitate to give it to people who need it.

  You Bite Me, I Bite You, That's called Love Bite

Ryan L

The Little Lion

Second Half

First half of the year is gone. Do you resolve any resolution that you set on the beginning of the year?

My first half of 2012 was great for me. I get to know some great people, started my degree, working life is stress but still manageable, went to Bangkok, and now starting to plan to get a car for myself. Always wanted to get myself a car but still taking myself some time to consider that am I able to commit myself into such big commitment in such age and such pay? I guess I still need some time to think about it.

Life should not be so easy, that’s what I am telling myself so easy. We tend to be lazy if life gets easy. I think the second half of the year gonna be very busy as assignment and workload getting more and more. No complaint but just hope to get a short break for myself.

Let’s hope better for the rest of the year 2012.

And finally talked to the Famous Calvin. Good start of the second half year i guess 

Ryan L

The Little Lion